Things have gone well this weekend. I did manage to help out a Christmas book sale held by the church I am attending; the more so because I bought some good novels for a very low price. Still and all, can I not dispel that anxiety I yet bear regarding my not so bright start at this Language school I begin working for tomorrow. After many of being dogged by insecurity, can I say that at least nowadays am doing better. Even so, I still have a long way to go. For the time being, the more I go up the ladder, the better I will feel. Perhaps some of the advice I derided as unreasonable was in fact not that way whatsoever. Be that as it may, I was adamant enough so as not to change my mind at all. At this point, having made it to the shortlist of a no so great job does not seem such an accomplishment. Notwithstanding, am I still ravenous for knowledge and cannot turn down the only chance I have got so far to move on. Irrespective of the fact that my folks think I am having a flippant attitude toward my future, I still think I am doing the right thing. Even though it is true that I left school without a plan, things have not turned out that badly. I did muddle through and got a job besides some social groups I started frequenting. The sole reason for attending a college should not be to get a degree, but to learn stuff that you would not normally learn somewhere else. Nonetheless, have I got disappointed at some of my teacher´s performances. Despite the fact that there are quite a few exceptions, having classes that are almost not taught in fact makes students waste a lot of time. Not to mention, that the older you are the worse you feel when not getting advantages of the chances that you run into. Perhaps I have even bemired my own self-regard by swallowing some of these individuals constant criticism. Albeit, am I now working on improving my assertiveness. You see, having confidence in your skills and achievements, among other aspects is the centerpiece for a healthy mental health. Thus, you begin stagnating at whatever goal had been working on the moment  you stop believing in yourself. Anyhow, before I start fumbling for words, I am going to wrap this up. Lastly, let me tell you that I am now poised to take up my upcoming challenge regardless of my current difficulties.

How to Deal With People That Get You Down

Once again I am in a tight spot. I mean, even though I already have a job, it did not turn out to be the way I was expecting it to be. Not to mention that some of my colleagues had began teaching even before the training program finished. I indeed have attended every single session of the training program. However, I just got assigned a single class to finally teach from this forthcoming Monday. Whereas my colleagues are teaching at least two classes. I have no idea why it still is so hard for me to speak up for my rights. Still and all, I can still pluck up the courage to go up and talk to my supervisor to get more chances. In the meantime, I should take advantage of the material I have been given. May I be yet at an incipient stage on this new job. However, had I been informed earlier that there were classes available to teach a few weeks ago, I would already have begun teaching. Aside from remaining poised at this one more tough situation, should I consider working on my negotiation skills once and for all. I mean the bright side might be that at least I got to have some extra training. To be honest, I have no idea when the day in which I luck out is going to be. Nonetheless, I have to learn to defend myself if I expect to one day be able to champion the cause for a better education in my country. Irrespective of how hard it may be for me to hide showing my true colors when I first meet people, I should try to seem more confident at least with my future clients. Be that as it may, I have look for more chances to keep learning and growing as a person as soon as possible. The more I apply what I have learned, the more secure I will become. Of course there are many things I need to work over. Notwithstanding, I must stop overthinking things. May be indignant at how I have been treated by others in the past. Nonetheless, am I going to keep being mistreated until start asserting myself. Wailing over everything does not solve any of your problems. What is more, secluding myself when I feel down is even worse. There is always a need to have a confidant you can talk to. Even though I have had many people who have offered my their friendship many times, have been blind at their offer to help. Lastly, I have no idea what beckons for me regarding my profession. One thing is for sure though. If I keep chickening out from my issues, am I not going to wind up well. Moreover, often times we find ourselves out of sorts  owing to our inability to see what is right in front of us. There is a chasm between the people who start doing things, regardless of how many times they have failed before; and the people who never give themselves a second chance.

4 Reasons to Become a Morning Person & 5 Ways to Do It

Still am I having some trouble to wake up early. Though, at this point I think it has to do more about will power than anything else. Besides, the more I keep cavilling at my past mistakes, the more I realize there is no way to change my past. Notwithstanding it does not mean I cannot work for a better future. It does take unflinching courage to carry on after having experienced hard times. What is more, that kind of ennui that comes from a deep depression can in fact bring anybody down easily. Still and all, one can decide to stop feeling bummed out at their current situation the moment the decide to change it. Irrespective of how much change makes you shudder; it is better to take a step than to regret for the rest of your life that you did not do anything to further your goals. By the way, last night I partook in a conversation regarding education in Peru. This marvellous gentleman whose name I do not recall brought up the following idiom: ¨If you pay peanuts, you get monkeys¨. This basically means that if an employer wants results in their company they have to hire competent staff, which costs a considerable amount of money. Be that as it may, in the third world mostly government do not care whatsoever about having a good education. Thus, the abundance of mediocre teachers in the local system. It is not acceptable to hear that one has to make do with they have. At least in Peru, there is in fact enought budget to hire way more competent educators. Nonetheless, politicians prioritize other matters over education. Moreover, it is common in our society to see the majority of people jeering at someone who has got an a degree or whatnot. There is in fact a need to bolster local citizens´ morale. They say that ignorance is bliss. Notwithstanding, politicians take advantage of people´s lack of knowledge so as to get more votes. If we keep allowing ignorance to be a fundamental factor in our society, even more trouble is brewing up. Ergo, I suggest every individual I know to grub around in their atics for books they have never even looked at before. Trying to weed out the less intelligent people from the ones that are not serves as a way to improve the productivity of an institution. However, it is also necessary to change the mentality of most here. Must we strive to build a better future for our country. May it take not only us but our future generations to toil at accomplishing to have a more educated society. Albeit, it is indeed totally worth it. Lastly I would say that I hope more and more people follow suit of what citizens in developed nations do so as to have a more informed population.

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Provided that I apply myself from hereon in, will I ultimately succeed. Nonetheless, am I always going to have that bitter feeling inside me that tells me I could have done way better. Had my immediate family not interfered with my affairs from the beginning, perhaps I would have had a brighter present. Notwithstanding, as I have been reminded countless times, there is nothing I can do to rewind my life. I am almost in the clear now. However, still do I have sort some things out before I can say I feel totally relieved. Besides, there is something I have noticed I need to change. Can I not feel overawed owing to the fact that I have to compete with some native English speakers in my new job. Irrespective of my past mistakes, have I amassed quite enough knowledge of this language so as to feel confident about it. The only thing I have to do is to start asserting myself. What is more, I have learned the hard way that ultimately there is no way to circumvent your duties. No matter how much we would like to escape from every single issue we have to confront and go live to a utopia. Be that as it may, am I in a buoyant mood right now. By the way, I did neglect to mention that today I started attending a conversation session that allows participants themselves to come up with topics so as to share with the class. You see, this guy Cesar (a lawyer) whom I met at one of the services I had been going put me onto this sessions. In fact, he himself holds this workshop, which seems quite interesting. Moreover, there is no need to lower your level of English in order to offset the lack of knowledge of the clubs members. In fact, every one of its members has a considerably high level of both comprehension and speaking skills. Therefore, could I indeed have the chance to express my opinions fluently without having any sort of setback. Nonetheless, I have to confess that it is permissible for anyone who would like to join in not to be fluent in English. Anyhow, I may not yet be in the mood of capering around my neighborhood. Albeit, have I made some progress under the auspices of selfless and kind-hearted friends. To wrap things up, I would say that there is no point in giving up, regardless of what I could have experienced in the past. Further, am I going to start preparing not only my model class for next Wednesday´s presentation at my new job, but also some handouts to dole out in the following workshop I will be participating in.

"Fight Procrastination" - 3 Little-Known Techniques

Am I going to reach the glass ceiling in the future due to focusing on work for now? Beats me. Besides, not exactly had I become a work-shy individual. Still and all, depression kind of held me back lately. Should I be glad I finally got a job as an ESL teacher. Nonetheless, still are there many things I have left undone. The deadpan expression on my face says it all. Moreover, one thing is for sure: By no means can I abate my resolve at trying to make up for the time lost. What is more, there is no time for slumping spirits. The intricacy of the path to success is indeed prominent. Be that as it may, if I keep on behaving like a needle stuck in a groove bewailing my problems, people are going to start getting bored to death. It is an understatement to say that the task I must complete in the foreseeable future will not have my work cut out. Not to mention that it is in fact hard to get off your tail once you have overcome depression. However, down I may be feeling whenever I talk to a friend, should I allow them to get a word in edgeways. You see, once I start off recounting my melodramas, it is nearly impossible to stop me. Moreover, not only should I focus on talking less about myself, but also on avoiding lax discipline. Notwithstanding, it will not be easy whatsoever. Thus, the need for me to set around finding a solution to all my dilemmas and to jot down on a list all the things that have to be get over with. Further, must I not soft-pedal my situation right now. I do not have that many opportunities left so as to mess up even more of them. Anyhow, of course have I noticed I have used way too many idioms in this writing. Even so, it is still fun to use them. In addition, this is not exactly formal writing. Next time, I would rather someone else made a post in lieu of me. Albeit, I am going to venture an write down one more expression. As annoying as this may sound, I may have such a consistent dinner in after this,  owing to being starving that it sure will put hairs on my chest.

How to cure social anxiety

It is not easy to slough off responsibilities. Nonetheless, when you are going through a rough time it is indeed understandable. However, at this point I am not that concerned about having blemished my reputation but about how much my health is in fact improving. Might some of my decisions in fact have wrecked my plans to finish my program. Still and all, by no means am I willing to avoid dreaming about becoming a teacher. What is more, I should rearrange my plans so as not to make even more mistakes. Irrespective of the fact that I may be pressed for time to solve my problems, should I not stop working on what I like doing the most. Moreover, it is beside the point to think about the fact that some of the reasons for me being in the position I am now is due to my family being extra pushy. Further, the only thing that can stunt my progress from hereon in is my own attitude. By the there is a saying that say as follows: ¨You can knock on a deaf man´s door forever¨: which means that if you have a negative idea stuck in your mind, it is going to be impossible for other people to change it. Also not that I want to go off on a tangent, but I also heard this other expression today: ¨To jump the shark¨ which means to go outmoded. This phrase is mainly regarded to public figures, and movies or TV shows. Albeit, could I say in a sense that my popularity at school has jumped the shark. Anyhow, will I try to stop furrowing my eyebrows at some point in order not to get even more wrinkles than the ones I am going to get as I age. Perhaps what I must do from now on is to grit my teeth and try to juggle different activities throughout the day so as to center myself and focus on the present.

MLM Training | Are You comparing yourself to others? WELL STOP!

Such a wonderful Sunday I had. Truth be told, I had not felt like this in a long time. Still and all, there is quite a few things yet I must accomplish before I can say to myself that I feel happy. Anyhow, I have been called a ¨drama queen¨ by this outstanding gentleman (David) I met about a month ago. Perhaps he is right. I mean, bewailing my sorrows is only going to hold me back even more. Therefore, as I have been told already, I should concentrate on the positive side of things. You see, ever since I joined this church I am attending, things started picking up. Not to mention that I lucked out when I made acquaintance of many well-spoken, trustworthy and gentle people. Besides, there are several other opportunities awaiting for me. To be honest I had not already explored all avenues before I began getting depressed. You become a lame duck the second you stop believing in yourself. Thus, people sense your fear and trample over you. What is more, you  hurt yourself sapping your energy by pondering on the past. As opposed to what happens when you try as hard as you can to  focus on the here and now. Perhaps I should stop having pessimism on the brain. Notwithstanding, it will not be easy to redeem myself and ultimately accomplish what I desire. On my book, my insatiable curiosity has only help me so far. By the way, one of the things that do not help me grow may be the fact that I tend to compare myself to other individuals more successful than I am. Nonetheless, I should try to be the best version of myself as I have been told as well. Moreover, the analogy of fruit you are going to see in the video I will post is axiomatic. Every single person matures at their own rate. The same happens with fruits. Ergo, do I need to stop being an splenetic fool and try to remain calm, empty my mind for some minutes, and look for a way to clear out any difficulty that is causing me trouble now. Anyhow, a bit of elbow grease might get me back on track. Thereby, allowing me to feel better altogether.  Everyone has had enough already regarding me digging in my heels in and refusing to listen to advice. Even so,  is it never to late to turn over a new leaf... Yet I believe that being endued with a great talent would be pointless if it does not get to be discovered.

PS: Did I neglected to mention that I joined the church´s choir. Albeit, I am reacquainting myself with reading music.

Perhaps I have overdone blaming my kin for my failures. May they be guilty of steering me into the wrong direction a couple of times. Nonetheless, it was because what they thought they were doing was the best for me. Even if it was not though, I have gotten back at them by annoying them more times than I can remember. Still and all it pains I am not half the person I wish I were. Had I done the things I planned on doing on the first place, I would not be going through this rough time right now. Even so, as hopeless as my fate might seem, still there is something that keeps me going. Yet there are many challenges I have to confront. As much as I would like to keep procrastinating, I cannot waste one more second. Living in a world whereby I had not been so unlucky thus far. Moreover, could I have been more successful, had I not accepted everything I was told to do. Notwithstanding, am I not done yet. Apart from dialing back my anger, there is a need for me to black out my negative experiences. Irrespective of how many I have had. Anyhow, enough me-talking already. No matter how much you wish you could rewind your life; thinking about the future is not only more realistic, but also more productive. By the way, did I mention I applied to a new job already. It was just about time I did. Do I hope things panned out well. Not to mention that I have crossed my fingers in order to wait for the results. What is more, would I be glad if I were not amongst the applicants who were culled out from the group. A sense of relief flow over me if I were to be given the good news. Just for once I would like to be fortunate enough so as to have my hard work come to fruition and not get frazzled at the outcome. Regardless of what turns out though, must I lock down my schedule and keep looking for chances. Besides, I should be looking for something to rekindle my hopes pronto. Have I always suffered due to the imbalance in the dichotomy between theory and practice I have so far. More theory than practice does not make for a great educator. Lastly, I would say it is time to quieten my mind and think about how I can improve my quality of life once and for all. Ergo, from hereon in, must I seek to redress the balance.

Life Advice, Fixing Social Anxiety, Relationships, & Over Thinking

Someone told me this afternoon that he has an ear for me. Those words really made me feel better. I mean ever since I joined this church, have I met wonderful people who are indeed helping while bearing up. Not to mention that it seems I am going to start working again. It turns out a person from one of the conversation sessions I have been attending works in a language center and was looking for a new teacher. Thus, I might get the job. It seems as though I am back in the game. Nonetheless, still have I not gone to my school so as to do the paperwork to ask for my medical withdrawal. Perhaps lately I may have been using a profligate use of my time. Still and all, never did I stop immersing myself in the English language. Besides, the only thing I needed was something to stir me up help me get back on track. Have I not inkling of what is going to happen in the future. Frankly, I would rather someone else solved my problems. Albeit, I can expect people to assist me only so far. As they say ¨you can take a horse to water but you cannot make it drink¨. Moreover, something in my gut tells me am I doing the right thing for a change. Thus far, I have always felt as a boy stuck in a man´s body. On account of being bossed around by my kin that is. Even so, it is time to change to a higher orbit. The time I spent chewing over what to do has run out.  Life is ephemeral; ergo there is no way I am going to waste one more second pondering about things. What is more, not only do I need to filter my life, but also do I have to change my mindset. Further, oftentimes I do not realize how much potential I have got to accomplish many things. Therefore, I have had enough of downgrading myself. For starters, must I list all the things I want to achieve for the rest of my life. Second of all, do I need to start taking action so as to work my way up the ladder at any job. Hence, there is a need for me to be steadfast in my determination to not giving up. By degrees will achieve things I never imagined I could have. In fact, sometimes, we ourselves are our worse enemies. By cheapening our accomplishments we bring ourselves down.  Ergo, we begin looking at the bright side of every single experience we encounter, as opposed to berating ourselves for our mistakes

Am I starting to have second thoughts about what I did. I mean the guys care about me at school and all. Nonetheless, I started out the semester having a negative attitude. You see, have I disappointed even more the people who gave me second chances. Not to mention that besides joining a charge, have I not done anything meaningful in these past few weeks. Besides, I need to either find a job or something along those lines if I want to keep my mind busy. Notwithstanding, things have not exactly changed as much as I would have wanted them to. There is an expression called ¨analysis paralisis¨, which basically means to procrastinate by pondering too much over an issue and not take action. Ergo, I feel that I have fallen into that bad habit due to overthinking things. What is more, even though I have not killed myself, have I cut myself off in my prime regarding school. Perhaps I see that way because to school was everything. Still and all, when I started slacking off I started losing respect from both my peers and teachers. Moreover, even if I wanted to launch out on my own I would need loads of cash, which I do not have. Thus, I am between a rock and a hard place now. Nevertheless, I would relate to the idiom ¨if the cap fits wear it¨, due to having been making silly mistakes quite often lately. I mean, a process of catching up at this point would be nearly impossible. You see, have flunk most of my courses. Be that as it may, many tell me that even at this point I still could make some progress. Have I reach a point of no return?. I believe I indeed have. However, have I not idea what to do now. Even though I have not officially quit. did my friends made me a farewell party. Ergo, am I indeed in two minds whether or not to attend school tomorrow. Irrespective of how many absences I have, perhaps a medical certificate would suffice. I do not even conceive that my situation could be likened to any other. My dreams  of distilling my posts on this blog into a book may never come true if I do not complete my program. Even so, I do not know whether or not it will cause me overstress. Not that I consider myself a lazy person overall. Albeit, I have been one during the past month. Hence, to reverse that situation I would have to exert myself a lot more. Of course it would in fact serve me to go over to my school and face up to my responsibilities. Had I woken up to reality before, none of this would have been happening. Therefore, now have I reached a breaking point in life. I have applied into my wrong philosophy the expression ¨anything for an easy life[ thus far to avoid discussions with my kin. This has happened mostly ever since I left high school. Either my brother or my mom would boss me around and I wound up doing things I did not want to do in the first place. Such as for instance getting into the wrong college right after I left school, among others. Although, now I supposedly have taken up the reins of my life, none of the things I did especially when I was depressed seems to have help me clear my mind. Then again, it would seem puerile to think that when you feel down you can actually behave properly.

Lately I have been suggesting myself: You can keep feeling sorry for yourself to the point of getting even more down in the dumps; alternatively you can try as hard as you can to overcome your illogically gained inferiority complex. Now that I have decided to step aside from school so as to mull over things at least for a while. Nonetheless, it does not mean I will have time enough to keep wasting on daydreaming. Do I have to prioritize my activities. Not to mention that I have to create a new schedule as soon as possible. To be honest, have I been doing so many clumsy things lately. Owing to not being focused on what I was doing of course. May it be true that things do not always go your way. Be that as it may, when you rush out of school or wherever you go to right after you have finished as I used to do, you do not realize how much you miss out on. Perhaps is it too late to figure that out. Still and all, now that I am trying out new experiences, I will indeed take that into account. Besides, at some point in our lives we start squalling when we look back at what we have done thus fur and find out most of it was not what we had planned on in the first place. Moreover, one of the things I did not appreciate while living it was the fact that I was surrounded by a lot of people who cared deeply about me. If only I had opened up a little more to them. Notwithstanding, I did try to fit at the start. Of course was I talking about my classmates and some of my teachers. You see, most of the time one takes things for granted. Even so, I know that irrespective of my mistakes, these people still will miss if I actually go through with what I have already decided. Moreover, there is something I must work on now. That is of course my deep-rooted insecurity. For some reason it has grown recently due to some setbacks I had along the way. Be that as it may, nothing justifies the fact that I did not want to pay heed to people´s advice. Thus, I ended up regretting at the last minute for the idiocies I had been doing.  Have I become a lost cause?. Perhaps, but even though I may think everything is lost for me now, who knows what lies in store?. By criticizing myself will I only keep worsening my situation. Although I have to confess that my slovenly habits have actually prejudice my duties a lot. Ergo, should I have to reinvent myself no matter what. Even this morning was it hard for me to wake up at the time I expected. For some reason, I still think about the past too much. It may be true that I had been exhorted by my kin to do staff I did not want to by my kin. However, I still can change and try to make things better. By the way, it seems as though my obsession with words will never die out. I learned a new random word today regarding religion it is transubstantiation, it is a noun and it is the belief that the bread and wine of the Communion service actually become the body and blood of Jesus.

Many tell me that by quitting school I would be making a huge mistake. Still and all, I do not believe that whatsoever. Above all, my health is what be taking into account. Not to mention that I have already been trying to look for new chances. May I have missed to mark to obtain  a college degree. Nonetheless, it was not entirely my fault. Even though procrastination was one of the reasons I wound up this way, most of the circumstances I have gone through lately have not been favorable either. To little avail did I try to carry on without help from a therapist. Indeed, it is crucial for me at this point to sort my ideas out. My present situation might prefigure my undoing. Even so, nothing is certain yet. Perhaps the lucky strike or serendipitous even I was waiting for is lying in store for me. Only do I have to be at the right time at the right place and make the right decision. As I had already mentioned, for some I my last choice of path seems to be merely an escapade. Notwithstanding, do I think I am right in following my gut irrespective of what my kin may think. For once in my life, I believe what I am doing is right and am not just subduing myself to the commands to either my mom or my brother. Thus, my horizons will widen little by little as long as I keep constant in at the most two activities at a time in an organized manner. Even though I may not reach the apotheosis of my career now, at least I know I will be happy. Besides, not only should I be jolly, but also I should preserve my health no matter what. I have had enough of being treated as if I were a little child who has to be flushed out in order to go to school. Moreover, also did I want to bring up the fact that perhaps I had been a little surreptitious not to share my blog with everyone I knew before. Be that as it may, I shared it after all. Hence, it will strengthten my confidence a bit to ask for a medical withdrawal at college. You see, that way I will be able to write even more and to experience new things I had never gotten the chance too. Further, perhaps my actions may not turn heads now. Still and all, do I think I am doing the right thing. By stepping aside from school at least for a while I am sure I will be able to clear my mind and get my feelings of guilt out of my system. Lastly, I would say that I must see this change as a turning point in my life and not as a failure by no means. It may be true that a word to the wise is sufficient. Nonetheless, if that word means you will be doing something that does not appeal to you forever, then there is a problem there.

How to get over regret

Still am I procrastinating. Not to mention that am running out of ideas on what to talk about. Anyhow, it seems to me that it takes me longer to write a decision than I had expected.  Doubts have clouded my mind so much that I seem incapable to confront my problems now. Anyhow, today I went over to another Christian church that was holding a conversation session on space. At least I had a good time there. Moreover, I could finally meet one of the guys whom I had been messaging through Facebook for a while now and had not got the chance to talk to in person yet.

Irrespective of  all the time I let go by, did I get to experience what it is to be part of a social environment that suits me best. For instance, today I leaned words such as ¨terraform¨ which means to make a planet other than the Earth more suitable so as to sustain life. Even though I could enjoy myself a little thus far, can I not forget the fact that I keep disappointing my teachers and friends at school even more. Still and all, as I have said before, the fact that I have been quite sensitive lately has made me the perfect target for some assholes with an unsparing attitude whom do not realize they can hurt a person considerably bad if they act with disregard.

Do I seem to string my issues out more than necessary. However, is it hard me to change. I swear I wish I were a totally different person. Even so, as they say ¨dreaming away stuff does not make it happen¨. Moreover, every time I go overboard with a new project, nothing seems to work out. Perhaps I should switch over to a different mindset. Notwithstanding, for some reason I tend to overthink even that. Indeed my insecurities have hamstrung myself from accomplishing a myriad of goals. Despite the fact that i fight against it, my efforts are so little so as to pay off. To be honest, the only thing I can thank my lucky stars for is the fact that I am still alive. You see, I myself have lowered my self-regard to the point of the extreme. I wish my instincts were to shepherd me to the right direction in life. Be that as it may, it is going to take a lot more to make me improve my social skills.

Trying to keep a stiff upper lip during a situation that you cannot snap out of seems utterly challenging. Boy had I not been receptive before I realized I was wasting my existence away. Nonetheless, will I try to finally unburden myself to the dean or anyone who can help me out. Do I have to be straight-forward about my intentions once and for all. Further, have I been told that I do not need a rundown on how to behave. Nevertheless, it seems as if the more I put off my issues the worst I feel. If only I were more stout-hearted, I would probably had gotten these worries off my chest already. Will I ever learn?. It is up to me to decide. Perhaps I need somebody else´s spunk to rub off on me.

Creed - With Arms Wide Open

It has indeed been a while since the last time I wrote something down. Anyhow, I actually am glad that finally did I get to join a Christian church. Irrespective of what my kin may think about it. I was meaning to join for years so as to learn as much as I could not only about that religion but also about many others. Taking the first step for me has actually been amazing. I am planning on learning as much as I can about religious topics. Besides, do I still have to discipline myself in order to accomplish anything meaningful. Nonetheless, I still am hesitant about whether or not to drop out of school. To be honest, I have drag things out so much that it would be a burden to even try to set things right. Irrespective of the fact that it would take me a while to orient myself in a new studying environment, I am willing to start over. Not to mention, that a fresh start would also help me to overcome my negativeness. In fact, there are many reasons why I should consider quiting. For starters, I have been meaning to partake in a more English speaking oriented environment for a long time. In seems as though, I do not feel motivated about school as I did before. Nonetheless, it is always hard to move from one environment to the other. Am I indeed knocked for six when I think back at all the idiotic mistakes I have made recently. Even so, I know they have been made out of anxiety and not straight thinking. Moreover, even though I have got a lot of support from my friends in class, some inconveniences arose anyway. Such as the fact that at least one of the teachers has been a little hostile towards myself. Be that as it may, I was sick even before that so I would not blame her even though I know her behaviour was disrespectful. Now that I can think about things deeply though, I realize that perhaps I was not meant to be a teacher. There are lots of things I yet have not learn and by remaining in one single place is going to be utterly hard to accomplish my desires. Anyhow, could I keep droning on about my issues. Notwithstanding, I have to get a move on, regardless of the fact that I actually have hit rock  bottom. Further, just as if a mail man were to circulate several letters to the neighborhood, rumours can be spread as fast. Perhaps some may think that to me it would be a terrible idea to leave college. Still and all, I believe that I have to follow my gut, which is telling me that I have to make up for the time I lost when I was talked out of joining a religious organization. Ergo, now that I have got the chance to do so, will I surround myself with the topic as much as I can. Moreover, there is something that tells me that I need a new experience to transfigure my aimless existence. As longs as I act with prudence from here on in. Anyhow, I must take a leave of you all. Will I keep you posted on what I come up with in the foreseeable future.

How to say NO! Communication skills that work

All of recent actions beg the question as to what I am going to do with my life if actually drop out of school. Nonetheless, as I have been told before, I would not be the end of the world if did. By the way, I finally got to go that church I was meaning to attend for years and took as much advantage of it as I could. After all, I feel kind of guilty that I had been absenting myself from school on account of depression. Be that as it may, have I begged off lots of responsibilities I had concur to do. Thus, redeeming myself is not going to be easy. I know I may have promised myself to follow through with my program when I first started out. Even so, I had no idea any of this would have had happened. Not to mention that I could not actually rely on my instincts to pull me through each time I would need to do anything difficult owing to the fact that I had been cloistered by my folks almost my entire life. Ergo, to it is harder than to average person to interact with people on a regular basis. To be honest, this morning I felt relieved after I lastly made it to the church. Ever since I was nineteen I had been thinking on going. Be that as it may, either my brother or my mom would discourage me.  Enough about my excuses though. I am an adult now, and hope to be more responsible from now on. Despite the fact that I thought many times that my popularity waned a lot. My friends let me know that actually they supported me no matter what. Still and all, have I been so blind so as not to seeing the good intention they all had towards me. My English indeed got rusty. Nonetheless, it did not happen due to the fact that I am bad at it, but for I stopped practicing. However way I think about the aforesaid statement, it is indeed true that I was actually sloppy in my duties. Although, I have to accept that I was in fact sick and that I could not think straight. Irrespective of the fact that I may have assignments or test due at ant time in the present, I just do not show the same enthusiasm I used to show before. What is more, I think I should be more straightforward with people and tell them how I really feel. Irrespective of what their reactions might be, my health is more important than them.  Did I not want to see my reality and herein lies the crux of my problems. Apart from that I know that perhaps in past I may have subdue myself to let my officious kin boss me around. Still and all, what they did not know that they were making me miss out on a lot of new chances. Bringing up the rear, I would say that people can in fact enjoin you to do whatever they want. Notwithstanding, at the end of the day your life is the one that is going to end up screwed and not theirs. Therefore learning to say no at an early age would have made me a better person. Anyhow, thinking about the past will only keep embittering myself. Hence, I must man up and show up at school to explain my situation and make up my mind regardless of how shameful I may feel. Never think about the loss of face you could fall into due depression as something negative. Remember that sometimes you are not yourself when you get down in the dumps.

Can People Change? DECIDE Who You Want To Be Right Now

I cannot change the past as much as I would like it to happen. Nonetheless, I still can make decisions that will switch my life around for a change. Not exactly do I have to make a bucket list, even though I feel as if I might perish sooner than I thought. Besides, I know that upcoming problems can be forestalled by starting to take action. Be that as it may, my confidence is something I am trying to regain. Irrespective of the fact that my options have tapered off, I still think I can at least try to keep my cool and stop assaying my situation. Despite the fact that it will not be easy for me to feel better with myself after all of the mistakes I have made, I still can find some internal peace by trying to commune with nature and pray a little. In the face of the fear I may be feeling right now, I must carry on and make up my mind on the spot. Moreover, I cannot let my fears detract me from the joy I can get out of doing the things I like the most. Perhaps I have always had the inalienable right to decide my own future. Still and all, I have always let others boss me around. Ergo, it is time for me to decide what is best. Otherwise, it may be too late tomorrow. Not to mention that I have procrastinated enough already. You see, have I been dilatory in deciding to do things such as applying for jobs or whatnot on account of my shyness. However, it is time to snap out of my folly behaviour and do something. Further, I do not think I will be able to be haughty enough so as to disdain others anymore. May my mind be overrun by negative thoughts now. Be that as it may, I have had enough of it.  Furthermore, I should not keep pulling back from doing things that would benefit me out of fear for the rest of my life. In so far as I know, it will not be enough to remain abeyant. I must proceed with my life regardless of what I have done thus far. Everyone tried to drag me out of the brink of depression. Even so, I did not listen. Anyway, not to be in suspense for  me is something that is actually not normal. Thus, the need for me to do something meaningful once and for all. In my dreams I could indeed suspend disbelief. However. in reality, I must deal with the mess I have caused. My matchless skill to do things wrong can only go so far. Bringing up the rear, I would say that tomorrow I will find out whether or not I will end up being an apostate or not by attending the church I had been longing to visit for years. It is going to be a good way to leave doubts behind. What is more, I may finally be able to get those feelings of curiosity off my chest.