Lately I have been suggesting myself: You can keep feeling sorry for yourself to the point of getting even more down in the dumps; alternatively you can try as hard as you can to overcome your illogically gained inferiority complex. Now that I have decided to step aside from school so as to mull over things at least for a while. Nonetheless, it does not mean I will have time enough to keep wasting on daydreaming. Do I have to prioritize my activities. Not to mention that I have to create a new schedule as soon as possible. To be honest, have I been doing so many clumsy things lately. Owing to not being focused on what I was doing of course. May it be true that things do not always go your way. Be that as it may, when you rush out of school or wherever you go to right after you have finished as I used to do, you do not realize how much you miss out on. Perhaps is it too late to figure that out. Still and all, now that I am trying out new experiences, I will indeed take that into account. Besides, at some point in our lives we start squalling when we look back at what we have done thus fur and find out most of it was not what we had planned on in the first place. Moreover, one of the things I did not appreciate while living it was the fact that I was surrounded by a lot of people who cared deeply about me. If only I had opened up a little more to them. Notwithstanding, I did try to fit at the start. Of course was I talking about my classmates and some of my teachers. You see, most of the time one takes things for granted. Even so, I know that irrespective of my mistakes, these people still will miss if I actually go through with what I have already decided. Moreover, there is something I must work on now. That is of course my deep-rooted insecurity. For some reason it has grown recently due to some setbacks I had along the way. Be that as it may, nothing justifies the fact that I did not want to pay heed to people´s advice. Thus, I ended up regretting at the last minute for the idiocies I had been doing.  Have I become a lost cause?. Perhaps, but even though I may think everything is lost for me now, who knows what lies in store?. By criticizing myself will I only keep worsening my situation. Although I have to confess that my slovenly habits have actually prejudice my duties a lot. Ergo, should I have to reinvent myself no matter what. Even this morning was it hard for me to wake up at the time I expected. For some reason, I still think about the past too much. It may be true that I had been exhorted by my kin to do staff I did not want to by my kin. However, I still can change and try to make things better. By the way, it seems as though my obsession with words will never die out. I learned a new random word today regarding religion it is transubstantiation, it is a noun and it is the belief that the bread and wine of the Communion service actually become the body and blood of Jesus.