It has indeed been a while since the last time I wrote something down. Anyhow, I actually am glad that finally did I get to join a Christian church. Irrespective of what my kin may think about it. I was meaning to join for years so as to learn as much as I could not only about that religion but also about many others. Taking the first step for me has actually been amazing. I am planning on learning as much as I can about religious topics. Besides, do I still have to discipline myself in order to accomplish anything meaningful. Nonetheless, I still am hesitant about whether or not to drop out of school. To be honest, I have drag things out so much that it would be a burden to even try to set things right. Irrespective of the fact that it would take me a while to orient myself in a new studying environment, I am willing to start over. Not to mention, that a fresh start would also help me to overcome my negativeness. In fact, there are many reasons why I should consider quiting. For starters, I have been meaning to partake in a more English speaking oriented environment for a long time. In seems as though, I do not feel motivated about school as I did before. Nonetheless, it is always hard to move from one environment to the other. Am I indeed knocked for six when I think back at all the idiotic mistakes I have made recently. Even so, I know they have been made out of anxiety and not straight thinking. Moreover, even though I have got a lot of support from my friends in class, some inconveniences arose anyway. Such as the fact that at least one of the teachers has been a little hostile towards myself. Be that as it may, I was sick even before that so I would not blame her even though I know her behaviour was disrespectful. Now that I can think about things deeply though, I realize that perhaps I was not meant to be a teacher. There are lots of things I yet have not learn and by remaining in one single place is going to be utterly hard to accomplish my desires. Anyhow, could I keep droning on about my issues. Notwithstanding, I have to get a move on, regardless of the fact that I actually have hit rock  bottom. Further, just as if a mail man were to circulate several letters to the neighborhood, rumours can be spread as fast. Perhaps some may think that to me it would be a terrible idea to leave college. Still and all, I believe that I have to follow my gut, which is telling me that I have to make up for the time I lost when I was talked out of joining a religious organization. Ergo, now that I have got the chance to do so, will I surround myself with the topic as much as I can. Moreover, there is something that tells me that I need a new experience to transfigure my aimless existence. As longs as I act with prudence from here on in. Anyhow, I must take a leave of you all. Will I keep you posted on what I come up with in the foreseeable future.