Still am I procrastinating. Not to mention that am running out of ideas on what to talk about. Anyhow, it seems to me that it takes me longer to write a decision than I had expected. Doubts have clouded my mind so much that I seem incapable to confront my problems now. Anyhow, today I went over to another Christian church that was holding a conversation session on space. At least I had a good time there. Moreover, I could finally meet one of the guys whom I had been messaging through Facebook for a while now and had not got the chance to talk to in person yet.
Irrespective of all the time I let go by, did I get to experience what it is to be part of a social environment that suits me best. For instance, today I leaned words such as ¨terraform¨ which means to make a planet other than the Earth more suitable so as to sustain life. Even though I could enjoy myself a little thus far, can I not forget the fact that I keep disappointing my teachers and friends at school even more. Still and all, as I have said before, the fact that I have been quite sensitive lately has made me the perfect target for some assholes with an unsparing attitude whom do not realize they can hurt a person considerably bad if they act with disregard.
Do I seem to string my issues out more than necessary. However, is it hard me to change. I swear I wish I were a totally different person. Even so, as they say ¨dreaming away stuff does not make it happen¨. Moreover, every time I go overboard with a new project, nothing seems to work out. Perhaps I should switch over to a different mindset. Notwithstanding, for some reason I tend to overthink even that. Indeed my insecurities have hamstrung myself from accomplishing a myriad of goals. Despite the fact that i fight against it, my efforts are so little so as to pay off. To be honest, the only thing I can thank my lucky stars for is the fact that I am still alive. You see, I myself have lowered my self-regard to the point of the extreme. I wish my instincts were to shepherd me to the right direction in life. Be that as it may, it is going to take a lot more to make me improve my social skills.
Trying to keep a stiff upper lip during a situation that you cannot snap out of seems utterly challenging. Boy had I not been receptive before I realized I was wasting my existence away. Nonetheless, will I try to finally unburden myself to the dean or anyone who can help me out. Do I have to be straight-forward about my intentions once and for all. Further, have I been told that I do not need a rundown on how to behave. Nevertheless, it seems as if the more I put off my issues the worst I feel. If only I were more stout-hearted, I would probably had gotten these worries off my chest already. Will I ever learn?. It is up to me to decide. Perhaps I need somebody else´s spunk to rub off on me.
Irrespective of all the time I let go by, did I get to experience what it is to be part of a social environment that suits me best. For instance, today I leaned words such as ¨terraform¨ which means to make a planet other than the Earth more suitable so as to sustain life. Even though I could enjoy myself a little thus far, can I not forget the fact that I keep disappointing my teachers and friends at school even more. Still and all, as I have said before, the fact that I have been quite sensitive lately has made me the perfect target for some assholes with an unsparing attitude whom do not realize they can hurt a person considerably bad if they act with disregard.
Do I seem to string my issues out more than necessary. However, is it hard me to change. I swear I wish I were a totally different person. Even so, as they say ¨dreaming away stuff does not make it happen¨. Moreover, every time I go overboard with a new project, nothing seems to work out. Perhaps I should switch over to a different mindset. Notwithstanding, for some reason I tend to overthink even that. Indeed my insecurities have hamstrung myself from accomplishing a myriad of goals. Despite the fact that i fight against it, my efforts are so little so as to pay off. To be honest, the only thing I can thank my lucky stars for is the fact that I am still alive. You see, I myself have lowered my self-regard to the point of the extreme. I wish my instincts were to shepherd me to the right direction in life. Be that as it may, it is going to take a lot more to make me improve my social skills.
Trying to keep a stiff upper lip during a situation that you cannot snap out of seems utterly challenging. Boy had I not been receptive before I realized I was wasting my existence away. Nonetheless, will I try to finally unburden myself to the dean or anyone who can help me out. Do I have to be straight-forward about my intentions once and for all. Further, have I been told that I do not need a rundown on how to behave. Nevertheless, it seems as if the more I put off my issues the worst I feel. If only I were more stout-hearted, I would probably had gotten these worries off my chest already. Will I ever learn?. It is up to me to decide. Perhaps I need somebody else´s spunk to rub off on me.
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