Perhaps I have overdone blaming my kin for my failures. May they be guilty of steering me into the wrong direction a couple of times. Nonetheless, it was because what they thought they were doing was the best for me. Even if it was not though, I have gotten back at them by annoying them more times than I can remember. Still and all it pains I am not half the person I wish I were. Had I done the things I planned on doing on the first place, I would not be going through this rough time right now. Even so, as hopeless as my fate might seem, still there is something that keeps me going. Yet there are many challenges I have to confront. As much as I would like to keep procrastinating, I cannot waste one more second. Living in a world whereby I had not been so unlucky thus far. Moreover, could I have been more successful, had I not accepted everything I was told to do. Notwithstanding, am I not done yet. Apart from dialing back my anger, there is a need for me to black out my negative experiences. Irrespective of how many I have had. Anyhow, enough me-talking already. No matter how much you wish you could rewind your life; thinking about the future is not only more realistic, but also more productive. By the way, did I mention I applied to a new job already. It was just about time I did. Do I hope things panned out well. Not to mention that I have crossed my fingers in order to wait for the results. What is more, would I be glad if I were not amongst the applicants who were culled out from the group. A sense of relief flow over me if I were to be given the good news. Just for once I would like to be fortunate enough so as to have my hard work come to fruition and not get frazzled at the outcome. Regardless of what turns out though, must I lock down my schedule and keep looking for chances. Besides, I should be looking for something to rekindle my hopes pronto. Have I always suffered due to the imbalance in the dichotomy between theory and practice I have so far. More theory than practice does not make for a great educator. Lastly, I would say it is time to quieten my mind and think about how I can improve my quality of life once and for all. Ergo, from hereon in, must I seek to redress the balance.