All of recent actions beg the question as to what I am going to do with my life if actually drop out of school. Nonetheless, as I have been told before, I would not be the end of the world if did. By the way, I finally got to go that church I was meaning to attend for years and took as much advantage of it as I could. After all, I feel kind of guilty that I had been absenting myself from school on account of depression. Be that as it may, have I begged off lots of responsibilities I had concur to do. Thus, redeeming myself is not going to be easy. I know I may have promised myself to follow through with my program when I first started out. Even so, I had no idea any of this would have had happened. Not to mention that I could not actually rely on my instincts to pull me through each time I would need to do anything difficult owing to the fact that I had been cloistered by my folks almost my entire life. Ergo, to it is harder than to average person to interact with people on a regular basis. To be honest, this morning I felt relieved after I lastly made it to the church. Ever since I was nineteen I had been thinking on going. Be that as it may, either my brother or my mom would discourage me.  Enough about my excuses though. I am an adult now, and hope to be more responsible from now on. Despite the fact that I thought many times that my popularity waned a lot. My friends let me know that actually they supported me no matter what. Still and all, have I been so blind so as not to seeing the good intention they all had towards me. My English indeed got rusty. Nonetheless, it did not happen due to the fact that I am bad at it, but for I stopped practicing. However way I think about the aforesaid statement, it is indeed true that I was actually sloppy in my duties. Although, I have to accept that I was in fact sick and that I could not think straight. Irrespective of the fact that I may have assignments or test due at ant time in the present, I just do not show the same enthusiasm I used to show before. What is more, I think I should be more straightforward with people and tell them how I really feel. Irrespective of what their reactions might be, my health is more important than them.  Did I not want to see my reality and herein lies the crux of my problems. Apart from that I know that perhaps in past I may have subdue myself to let my officious kin boss me around. Still and all, what they did not know that they were making me miss out on a lot of new chances. Bringing up the rear, I would say that people can in fact enjoin you to do whatever they want. Notwithstanding, at the end of the day your life is the one that is going to end up screwed and not theirs. Therefore learning to say no at an early age would have made me a better person. Anyhow, thinking about the past will only keep embittering myself. Hence, I must man up and show up at school to explain my situation and make up my mind regardless of how shameful I may feel. Never think about the loss of face you could fall into due depression as something negative. Remember that sometimes you are not yourself when you get down in the dumps.