Life ins`t exactly as easy as  going down a slide. Not that I like to use tautology with words. Anyhow, letting  things slide wouldn`t help me. Thus, the need for me to chin up. By the way, I`m just gonna mention a few topics in passing. Since it`s my first school day. I hope I don`t fall in the habit of grazing on junk food. My body ain`t flecked with bruises anymore. Besides, I gotta get rid of this flea-bitten attitude. Rethinking my plans is the smartest thing I can do now. My mind was feeding on dingy thoughts. There is no time for more  dreary days though. Luck only smiles on the ones who try their best. To think that I was considering giving up the ghost. I accept my state of affairs with equanimity now. Besides, why should I let a bunch of losers keep living while I give up. I still gotta serve up lots of fantastic posts to my audience. To me, I`m a ghost of my former self. Back as a kid, I was more assertive. I gotta get back my mojo. Still I`m in a quandary right now. As I said before, I wanna become big wig. Moreover, going to Canada seems reasonable to achieve it. Many have frozen me out of doing what I love. Thus, some of those situations may have halted me in my tracks. Even though I know some folks  have had it harder than me, I haven`t created a tempest in a teapot.  I`ve got though rough times too. If I keep this attitude, I may become a reigning writer. I`m at my wits` end right now. Nonetheless, I never lose hope. Anyhow, I`m kind of slumping down in my chair back and forth. Furthermore, I`m putting my back into this. I might stop trying chasing shadows. Who knows? I can`t live under the shadows of fear all my life. I don`t want anybody else`s job to put mine in the shade. My shades of opinion vary often. I know first hand what it means to suffer cause your kin controls your every move. Besides, my mind is swathed in confusion. At times, I`d even want to send my folks with a flea in their ear. However I cannot afford to move out. I never was flippant about my goals. It just that my life got fucked up by my family from the start. If don`t solve my problems soon, I may end up being hoisted by my own petard. I wish I were making a drama out of a small issue I could have. Though, that`s not the case, I`m experiencing more a crisis  than a dramedy. No more changes could unsettle me now. Since most of those have left me kissing goodbye my chances of success.

7:02 is my record of waking up  after  having gone to bed at 4. I may not be omnipotent like God. Though, my passion for writing keeps me from being in a state of lethargy. Despite my doctor warning me off doing this, I can`t stop. Besides, I don`t want you to run away with the impression that just cause a few bruises I`m not able to jot down some words.  Moreover, my mom`s words still ring in my ears: ¨Get some sleep you naughty kid¨. Even though nothing cushioned the blow, I still could bounce back quick. Not that I enjoy pain, but I want my words to be rung out to you. Though they literally won`t. Besides, I`ll head right back to bed after this. I need my ideas to  get across. May I be kicking against the rules; though I can`t help it. Moreover, carving out a successful career cannot be achieved if I keep lying down in bed. Were I a judge, I`d railroad my friends for being connected so late on Facebook. However, nobody bulldozed me into answering them. It seems as if my body were self-regulating. When I`m down in the dumps I sleep in. Though, when I get hit by a car, I feel livelier than ever. Turning over the events of that night, I remember I went limping over to a nearby Starbucks. The cashier heard my story and felt bad for me. I tried in vain to pay him for an orange juice cause he wouldn`t let me. Anyhow, I`m done with my past. My mom always says "there`s the donkey back at the wheat" every time I rake over it. I still haven`t forgotten about my dream of rewinding my life back to the past. It seems as if my head is more sore than my instep. Everyone tells me that I`m dreaming on. Nonetheless, no wish is too crazy for me. Let`s see who laughs last after I get the time travel problem cracked. I don`t care if it takes me the rest of my life to figure it out; or worse if I have to become a physicist. Not only do I wan to make up for the lost time, but I also wanna achieve every goal I`ve thought of. For some time, I though people were leading me up the garden path when they told anything is possible. Now though, I do believe it. Besides, I don`t wanna be in a dead heat. Being the best means wanting to succeed as much as you want to breathe. I`m sick of reliving the horror of my past events in my dreams. It`s time to kick some ass. Next time I go through triage, I`ll be the one examining the doc. Before I die, I hope to carve on a tree my greatest success; or  I'd like be bombarded with a volley of questions by paparazzi about some breakthrough I make. On the other hand, It breaks me up how much time I've wasted worrying about the what ifs. I gotta break with the past. It's time to keep my wit around me and start moving on. Be that is it may, It won't be easy. Every strand of my future plan will have to be fundamental. There is no time in  letting anybody leading me from the front anymore.

I won't let my missionary zeal diminish. Even if I have to burn the candle at both ends to get what I want. My body won't burn out as long as I seek to reach my goals. There's no point over bearing disquiet about what might happen to me. Anyhow, this nonsensical bombast has gone on for too long. I'm off. Lastly I'd say I don't want my posts to be few and far between. OK time to go I've got hiccups. Not wanting to add any more redundant words, I hope my work gets hyped up one day. PS. I still wanna localize the SOB's car.

I feel better now. Thus, I`m faring well on my recuperation. Blowing my stack during that episode seemed helpful. Moreover, I am calmed now. Besides a few contusions, I´m OK. After having my X-rays developed, I can be sure nothing is wrong. Luckily, my acuity wans`t affected by the crash. My brother got on to me by phone last night. Anyhow, having a ship on my shoulder about my past still hurts more than getting hit. From now on, I`ll take on board safety advice. I wonder when will be the time in which I`ll be able to kick up my heels. Well, let`s get on to something more jolly. Maybe the bird has flown. Though, I still managed to kick out at his car. If I can stand the hot sun broiling us, I can weather this accident. Hoping I don`t bore with my turgid prose. I`m glad everything panned out well in the end. I just gotta keep working on my dream to become a preeminent writer. Believe me, depression can be more bruising than a minor fall . Remaining on a torpid state doesn`t help anyone. I've remained laggard and benumbed enough.  Anyhow, fall is coming, which means days will shorten. I don`t need a foghorn to wake me up each morning.  Trying to clear the confusion fogging in my mind, I`ll try not to let anything dull me. Giving primacy to unimportant things is pointless. I know I live in a dysfunctional city. However, hoping the gov ushers in a change in public transport is tiring. More cops should be drafted in to control buses. After what happened to me, I don`t wanna send myself to the gallows anymore. Besides, a crackdown on crime needs to be done here. Utilitarianism doesn`t apply in Peru. Al least I haven't got a hoarse voice at this time of year. Despite all the smog and the not equable weather.  Anyway, tinkering with my PC, I discovered I can make it work faster. That seems more utilitarian. 

Writing seems to be my ego trip. Back to my city's criticism. If one has to bear the brunt of a shitty life in Lima, blowing a fuse doesn`t solve the prob. Media should criticize our crappy transport instead of panning silly programs. Being on board for banning this nightmarish  form of commuting is OK. It`s too late to develop a solution to transport. Having a centralized government system is inconvenient. A crisis is developing day by day cause of a housing boom. Rumors have been circulating about a change of buses in October. By the way, I gotta admit I hate when loud noises prevent from working. That`s why I think I`ll be boarding up my windows. I`m on the horns of the dilemma about what to do. Whether or not I stay in Peru is up to me. Well, I`d have exhaust all I have left to go back to Canada. Not that I wanna horn in on my bro's life. Though, since I kind developed depression cause of his control, I can't disclose my opinions. Making the wrong decision could shorten my path to success I better take care of my turgid foot. Hoping I don't make the nonsensical decision of doing things in a rush again. Belt out a tune like no one else. Well, I  better get cracking. One more thing, trying to sever contact with my kin has brought me bad luck. Ergo, I suggest you guys better lead a peaceful life.

Yesterday I got hit by a car. It seems that was the cure to my depression.  My body may have been bruised, though my mind has not. Besides, I`m becoming a whiz at writing. However, next time I whiz through traffic I`ll be more careful.  Moreover, there ain`t cause for sadness now. Besides, it is time to take the reins of my life. I gotta confess that now more than ever,  I look at my city with distrust. I didn`t elect to be born in Peru though. Anyway, I`ve been wakeful all night. Still do I feel a little spent. The sole purpose for me keeping on writing is not to lose hope. I gotta learn how to rein in my anger. Besides, it`d be good not to whiz through things. What happened to me may have been a cause. Though, cause of the excitement I couldn`t jot down the license plate of the aggressor. Luckily, I`m quick on the uptake. So that, I started kicking out the car as soon as I got up. After this, I should not feel saddened.  Sometimes, watching a hokey movie can cheer you up. That`s what I`d been doing. Though, I failed to heed my kin warning. I haven`t taken any hiatus from improving my English. Even though this recent episode seems like the straw that breaks the camel`s back, I don`t see it that way. I just gotta avoid a rerun in the way I used to do stuff. If I ever wanna become a hotshot and not become a spent force; not only will I have to mistrust ill-intentioned folks, but I also will have to be more ebullient. Even though I remain in an equable mood most of the time, I lack that spark of humor. Anyhow, dissolving into tears doesn`t solve anything. Life allows us to take part in may reruns.  By analogy, just like we absorb calcium by uptake, we gotta learn to love ourselves. Also, I`ve realized I don`t have to account for what I do to anyone. Moreover, taking advantage of the uptake of chances that come across us is crucial. Now that I feel better, I might as well take part in a hokey pokey. Anyhow, I just hope to find a way to get on in life. Lastly, I`d say that I`ll keep to my promise and not give up.

I don`t know why I have prevented myself from doing the things that I enjoyed the most many times. Life is too short for that. I`m the kind of person who gets annoyed by ballyhoo and being forced to do stuff. However, having maltreated my folks for nothing really takes the cake. Though it seems unwarranted, you`d understand if you were in my position. Moseying on to wherever place you feel like is a good therapy. By the way, I hope that when my brother and I meet again, old hostilities don`t resurface. Creating a tempest in a teapot on something that  happened in the past is pointless. I know I`ll become a professional of good caliber if I try. Besides, life is grueling and punishing. Though, it always gives us second chances. Having a cookie-cutter life is up to us.

Needless to say, you gotta work hard to get what you  want. Besides, having something that lulls your anxiety once in while seems helpful. For instance, something I do to achieve it is to leaf through the pages of my favorite novels. Let me tell you that I don`t spin yarns about my life. Sometimes, you gotta bellow to let off steam. Moreover, we all need a boon companion to help us deal with the shit come into our lives. Brooding on past only makes things worse. If you believe that one mistake you make is gonna endanger the future of you life. Courage feeds on achievements. So that if you believe you can do something, you will. You gotta prove yourself determined to succeed to be noticed. No croon of technology is gonna help us realize what is good for us. Strong feelings submerged in your mind can resurface. That`s why it`s important to assert ourselves. Our problems are inextricably connected.

Sometimes our remarks need to be outright to have an effect. Being inextricably involved in an activity can make us forget out issues. I don`t wanna be part of the bevy of those insecure folks who cannot make straight decisions. Back in Canada my brother lulled into a false sense of security. I thought everything was gonna be OK with him. However, living somewhere under the consent your brother and his partner ain`t as easy as burping a baby. Moreover, I`ve never stood pat about any decision I`ve made. Anyhow, the word ¨gravy¨ doesn`t exactly mean cash you get unexpectedly, it can also refer to  a lucky strike. Just one of the connotations of such a word. Befere, I decided to uproot to Canada. I may not be a dissident, though I know Peru is worse than ever. Motivation is never fed to us by the media. Due to this, younglings don`t get the real meaning of educational entertainment. As an epilogue to this writing, I`d say that even though my kin never saw the handwriting on the wall about my health.

I hope what I tell feeds into your reasoning. If you see at the canopy of stars in the sky, you then realize that anything is possible. Instead of letting your negative thoughts spew out of your mind, keep a positive attitude. Pat yourself in the back for your achievements once in a while. Never be too greedy, remember what happened to Faust after transacting with Satan. For these posts to feed through more to you guys, I`d have to promote this blog more. Don`t forget to ever consider your work as a piece of art. As if an sculpture you made had been inlaid with gold.

I`m living to fight another day. Thus, trying to haul myself out of bed each time. I`m done being a knocker. Besides, I've got unbalanced cause of all the suffering I`ve gone through. I only focused on one activity and therein lies the reason for my failure. It`s not a good idea to pull all your eggs in one basket. It`s hard not to throw in the towel when you`ve undergone such depression. Besides, I would be able to curb my temper if I were more sociable. Living in frenetic way may not have solved all my problems, though it`d have kept me busy. I may have a deft command of English now, though I can`t use it all the time. I realize now my brother wanted me to be submissive. I`ve also noticed my reasoning was unbalanced. If I was penniless, any job would have suffice. Then again, English is my passion. However my family did not have enough cash to provide a better education for me. Anger surged though me after failing so many times to reach my goals. Moreover, ideas may diverge and converge, though something my brother never understood was that you gotta live and let live. I`ve been raked over the coals for not having acted on stupid advice. Several times have I had to embroider the facts of the stories I told my friends to cover up for my insecurities. Having a plan that covers all the bases is crucial after leaving high school. Though, parental control fucks it up. Many times have I thought on getting my own back on my kin. Though, I realized I was hurting myself with those lurid thoughts.
If you wanna breast the top, you gotta be strong. Having family inquests on my own mistakes has only made me waste time. Depression is something that can kill you. For instance, your muscles get flaccid from luck of food. Furthermore, I`m the kind of person who needs nudge to move on. Something I regret is keeping my own counsel. It`s beside the point how long it takes to recover. As long as I have hope. I just need a friend to crouch down beside. After having been  a mama`s boy against my will, I`m fed up now. My mom thought that snuggling up to me was gonna make me stronger. Out of all the strands of my ideas, going back to Canada seems best.  I remember now every time I was forced to do something stupid, I sputtered with indignation afterwards. What I should have done is simply say ¨¨no¨¨. On the other hand, I`d like to have a shirt with the word ¨¨don`t give up¨ affixed to it. Anyhow, being able to construct a logical essay under this strain is not easy. I hope tears won`t streak my face anymore. I`ll have to strike out negative thoughts from my mind. Reminiscing about the past, I recall that back in Canada I was aching for home. I gotta remind myself that in the race of life surging  past others runners ain`t easy. My last verdict is that you gotta love your kin to have good fortune. If god were to return a verdict of me after I die, It`d be of not guilty. There`s been an upsurge of mounting tension in my family. By analogy, if I wanna be like a company that returns lots of profit, I`ll have to assert myself. Finally, I`d counsel myself not to waste any more time. Besides, relying on a counsel of despair doesn`t seem right. Hopefully, some day in the future, a friend  of mine will nudge me and whisper ¨Look what you`ve achieved¨. Anyhow, I`ll go for a walk and  I`ll make sure I don`t wear anything clunky.





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It`s ironic how I left my aunt`s home even though I wanted a little more independence. Though, it`s done. I didn`t mean it as an artifice to trick my dad. I was just scared. Fear is something that kills.

A feeling of worthlessness permeated myself right after I left. It`s not easy not to be disheartened by our wrongdoings. However, my action wasn`t exactly that but a misdemeanor. I`ve always been imbued with a desire to be better. Nonetheless my insecurity prevented from doing so. I needed get this pain off my chest. Something I`ve noticed is that my life has lacked excitement. I`ve never been able to run amok with a group of friends in college facility. Besides, I was a victim of ostracism while I was growing up. Due to that I wasn`t able to get used to most of the schools I attended. A fear of death has been rippling through myself. Hopefully, I`m gonna have to exert myself to be successful. Anyhow, I still remember my brother exerting his authority to make me do things I didn`t want to in the past. Moreover, my mom always laid my skills on with a trowel ; making my brother think I was perfect. Anyway, no drinks I guzzle, no books I read, are gonna make me forget my mistakes. The way we are raised infuses our whole life. I`ve never been one of those who rampages to get in line for a job position. If you were to see my personal file, you would notice that I`ve always been pliable and withdrawn. That`s why, I`d propound more care in kids upbringing by their parents. I may be fucked up, but it doesn`t mean that our future generations have to be this way too. Finally I`d say that there has always been an emotional interstice in my being. Only if I learn to avoid my inscrutable expressions and assert myself, will I find peace.

 

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I`ve decided not to give up. Despite all the shit I`ve gone through. Besides, it`s always been hard for me to express my opinions with aplomb. Being drawn and quartered for not asserting yourself is bad. I should have asserted my independence a long time ago. In fact, I`d given anything to be a voluble guy. Always have I had to be drawn out. It may seem that I was about to kill myself, when common sense reasserted itself. I`ll have to reassert my position with my folks. I`ve drawn out my decision to be mature. Moreover, I actually never drew emotional support from my kin. Though, it`s true that my situation has gone out of the frying pan into the fire partly casue of me. I`ll take all my personal effects and go somewhere where I finally can find peace. If there is a way to effect a cure for me, I wanna know it. The after effects we experience after bad things that happen to us can really affect us. I may have affected calmness. They say that to recover from depression, you gotta throw yourself into a whirlwind of activities. However cause of lack of cash, I couldn`t do it.  Furthermore, I`ve always felt treading a tightrope cause of the control of my family. Thus, I want to stop being trampled on. In addition, making a mistakes can cause a ripple effect. I should reassert that I may not recover from all this. Regret ripples through me for not having done what I had to in time.

I don't know what`s going on with me. Thus, I`m scared of offing myself. Besides, my past few aberrant actions have fucked me up. Moreover, I think I`ve been jinx by karma. My dad has always retorted my expressed intentions of committing suicide by being mean. Reminiscing about the past,  I remember that back as a kid, I wanted to be a colossus. Now, though, I am just a clown.  Besides, no comment coming out of my mouth can be trilled. I remember one of the things that made me happy was to warble my favorite songs in the shower. Of course I am scared of death, though it is the best solution. My riposte to depression has been to make it worse. Never did I try to look for social groups to solve my problem. I`m positive that being mean with my mom has brought me bad luck.
Withdrawing into myself has only made things worse. Not having much more to say, I`ll just think of a way to put an end to myself in the least painful way. I know one has to struggle on in life. I never had courage to do it. Having been rejoined all the time, my opinions have no value now.

Really, I am the one who cause this trouble to myself.  Besides, just like one steers clear of dangerous places, it is important to avoid harsh and hasty decisions.  My unwillingness to cure myself has impeded my healing mental process. Moreover, It perturbs me that I made such stupid mistakes. Furthermore, it is true that I`ve been trifled with by most people. Though, that`s cause I`ve let them. Thus, my problems seem insurmountable. Besides, grumbling about your vicissitudes is one thing. However, acting on them is different. Nothing can alter the way I feel. To say that I am depressed is an understatement.  All my negative thoughts agitate me now on top. Every time I watch a group of giggling guys bundling to their college, I wonder: Why can`t I be like them?. Thinking back, it never occurred to me I was gonna regret bundling up my clothes and moving with my dad after such a short time. To my kin my expression has always been inscrutable. Pleading family problems for my lack of motivation is reasonable. Though, being contrite all the time hurts me a lot. Steering myself out of this depression is impossible. I just hope I can find peace after I die. Never did I take advantage of the opportunities I came across. Maybe there will be a personnel department in heaven in which I can finally will be able to find my dream job.

It seems unreal, but I am back writing. I`ve never been ebullient enough to say that I was happy. Though I never tried to get over my problems. Blame is something that  has to be apportioned. I never understood it. I`d have to reconcile myself to the prospect of living my life as it is now. I am contrite for not having accepted the help of the ones who loved me. I could never summon up the courage to face up to my responsibilities. I am not a seasoned fighter. It grieves me I can`t do nothing to get better. I still can conjure up the happiest moments of my life. So many thin excuses have I had not to accomplish my goals. I can`t muster courage anymore. Even if something conciliates me now, I`d still feel pain. My temper has been frayed more than once. Besides, My world is falling apart at the seams. I have accommodated everyone for so long. Though nobody cared about my feelings. A rueful smile lightens up my face for a sec. I`d love to conjure a time machine out a yard`s garbage. The vicissitudes of my life were stronger than me. Before my mind was bulging with ideas; now only bad thoughts are evoked into it. To summon the energy to get out of bed is impossible for me now. Reconciling your duties with your emotional health is hard. Many times have I gone to triage for my physical health, though never for my emotional one. Besides, I haven`t really reconcile with my kin. If only I had summoned proper assistance. Not even the rhythm of the seasons has let me know there`s a big world out there. Anyhow, There was no warrant for me to abandoning my aunt`s home. I still don`t know why I did it.  To finish, I`d say it seems to me that Peruvian medical institutions make their customers fall for the crime of price rigging. Not even the biorhythm of one`s body is an excuse for medical centers to charge you more.

I was actually in the process of feeling better again. Though, I had an awful argument with my dad. That alone tore me up inside. Besides,  I have growing apprehension that this may be the last post I write. Letting my tears run their course ain`t helpful anymore. Furthermore, over the course of my life, I`ve prevented myself from taking advantage of each chance I`ve had to be happy. Furthermore, I am not on course for motivation anymore. In the ordinary course of things, I would have not behaved as I did.  As well, No course of pills is going to make me feel  better. My soulful eyes explain everything. I just needed to unburden myself to somebody. Though they either called off our dates or ignore my requests. Perhaps, if I had trusted more the people I knew. Be that as it may, I didn`t look for help hard enough. I am not catastrophizing my feelings. I didn`t want to cause hysteria among my relatives by making stupid decisions. Anyhow, my bliss before was to burn the midnight oil. Having information at my fingertips may have been helpful. Though, I left aside my social activities. My writing may be fanning the flames of negativism. Nonetheless, I can`t help it.  Thus, I seriously may be in course of committing suicide. I feel hopeless. To unburden myself of depression seems impossible.

Back in my good days, I could burn the candle at both ends and don`t break a sweat. I feel  as if my dreams have been burned down; as if my wit can`t hold a candle to other competent students. I`d like a handkerchief that not only could wick away my tears, but cheer me up. Lastly, I`d say that I should have paid more attention to the idiom ¨A stitch in time saves nine¨.
 

when the shit hits the fan
when somebody in authority finds out about something bad or wrong that somebody has done
When the shit hits the fan, I don't want to be here.




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urology noun
the scientific study of the urinary system

A new day has come. Ergo, I have to focus on the future from now on. Besides, my actions amount to a load of craziness. Thus, the reasons for my problems. I`ve to stop playing the victim. Even though I have felt that I`ve had no say in my family; I have to avoid raking it over. By analogy, I  feel like a recidivist who cannot stop doing bullshit. However, I need to leave all that behind. As well,
the process of me getting over my depression has to be commensurate with my willingness to achieving it. Moreover, burying the hatchet with my brother hasn`t help me that much. Anyhow, before I even consider launching out on my own I have to get a new chance. Apart from conquering my insecurity that is. I know  I`ve been out to lunch at times. That is because I did not want to move on.  I`ve even got hatchet job on my work many times. Moreover, I´ll put up a ballpark figure on how much time it will take me to recover. I estimate it a few months for my own sake. I don`t want to end up in a loony bin. On the other hand, I`ve buried myself in my work. Social activities are required for anybody who wants to keep alive. How am I going to barter ideas with others if I seat on my ass all day long? Whether or not I`ve been in a cleft stick is part of the past. Do I have to cleave to the hope that I will succeed no matter how much I have suffered. It is up to me to change. Taking all of what I`m going through as a wake-up call is the wisest thing I can do. Furthermore, nobody should be able to disrespect my volition. Lastly, I`d say that life puts you to trouble as a way to test you. It seems like if it were a hatchet man who is hired to bother other employees.

It seems that every single day I do crazier things. I was staying at my aunt`s place, which she shares with my dad. Anyhow, this time I packed up and left without arousing her suspicion. Furthermore, not even a day had gone by. Notwithstanding, It`s not that I was dismayed by her treatment. I am just sick. Maybe, if I had not rattled on about my past with my folks, they would have understood me. Mouthing off about drivel never solves anything. Besides, every tiny bad thing that happens unnerves me. It is not that I sardonically planed out this to upset my parents. Moreover, no encouraging remark has jolted me into action. The thought of failing rattles me more each time. I`m stumped, I don`t know how to better my situation. Many times have I muttered complaints about my kin under my breath.  I am clueless about my unreasonable behavior. After I stumped off my home the day before yesterday, I though everything was going to be OK. However, I was wrong. It seems ridiculous that I cannot snap out of it. In fact, there are people who are able to make a silk purse out of a sow`s ear.

Nonetheless, to me it is impossible to leave the past behind and move on with my life. Just like I`m capable of reading a book in one sitting, I should use my wit to get rid of this depression. Will a epiphany or a jolt of hope get rid of my insane thoughts?. I wish that happens for the sake of my health.

I finally moved out of my mom`s condo.  Thus, it may seem that my worries have been pared to the bone. Though, it is going to take a long time before I feel fully recovered. Moreover, I hope that my goals don`t remain as pious hopes. As dependent as I have been, it is hard to break free from that bond. Maybe, I should have conferred with both my parents about moving. Nonetheless, they never listened before.  Besides, I was not exactly immovable when I first though of it. As I said in a previous post, bitching about my kin won`t fix my life. More than once, I`ve said that I`ve felt affronted by my brother`s attitudes towards me in the past. Perhaps his motives for that were not exactly base. 

However, I still feel the pain of those actions. Furthermore, every time I needed serious advice from my brother, he was conspicuous by his absence. Not that I am scapegoating him now. My irreverent comments should have a limit. As well, I had been thinking about the saying ¨revenge is a dish best served cold¨. Notwithstanding, I would probably cut off my nose to spite my face. You never know if you plans are going to backfire. By analogy, it is like buying a pig in a poke. Besides, I may not be a devout Christian. However, I know that what goes around comes around.  Lastly, I`d say that no matter how many family quarrels you have experienced while growing up. There is a point in which you must put an end to those contentions.

I`ve been run roughshod over many times ever since I was a kid in elementary school. Hence, I tried to retaliate when I was in high school. Besides, I was conditioned to believe I was less than others. Thus, I grew up with an inferiority complex that was never treated. Having to withstand constant arguments. To take the plunge for me and change my life is hard at this point. I didn`t take the step to treat myself early enough. I was duped by my brother years ago into believing I was gonna have a better life in Canada. When in fact all he cared about was my mom`s money. Apart from this when the time came for me to confront such a situation I was not even ready. I had been forced into doing whatever my brother wanted. Due to this I couldn`t prepared myself. At times I felt as if I had been labeled a pawn by him. By analogy, I did not feel like the fisherman who spears the fish, but like the fish being speared. Moreover, my mom did everything he requested to he letter. Which ultimately fucked me up. Not  only was I prevailed on to enter a crappy college, but I also was constantly nagged by my brother`s visits to Lima. Without even consulting my mother, her was fresh enough to show up in our tiny condo. Even with company one time. Besides, I had to heave some of their damn suitcases up the stairs.  Cause of all of this, I`ve never had a place which I considered my turf. Enough crap already. I did not even mention my irresponsible father. Anyhow, bitching about my kin may work as catharsis. Nonetheless, doing it ain`t going to solve my problems. Lastly, I`d say that it is pathetic from me not having tackled my issues by now. After all, I`m an adult now. I should behave like one. Notwithstanding, I keep procrastinating. The way in which a person deals with life`s hardships is not exactly conditioned by their family`s wealth back in the past.





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Daniel Tammet: Different ways of knowing

Despite this damn depression, I`m still standing. Moreover, not even gabbing on the phone with my relatives for a while can soothe my pain. The decisions I made unwillingly in the past had far-reaching consequences. For starters, I wasn`t able to deal with simple tasks cause of one simple reason: I was not into what I was doing at the moment. Even though I didn't accepted doing those things under coercion, I still felt obliged. Who would have thought that being obedient would have fucked me up?. Many times, my kin`s unreasonable decisions came out of the blue. If I had been brave enough, I would have told them to fuck off and move out. Unfortunately in Peru, you can`t do that. It`s not common for teens to work as early as 16 years old. Besides, only a few of them manage to get part-time jobs later on.

Even if I turfed all the stuff that reminds me of my past, I still would have negative thoughts inside.

At times I feel like whacking myself in the head with the grip of a gun and end it all. My doubts about whether or not I can keep living with this crap are mounting up. The number of spats I`ve had with my folks outweighs the amount of  serious conversations we`ve had. On the plus side, the fact that I`ve always been overcome by curiosity has helped learn a lot. Nonetheless, it is all useless. Due to the fact that not a single chance to shine have I got. It may seem heresy that ¨the end justifies the means¨. However, to me it seems right at this point of my life. Anyhow, recently I saw a Tedtalk about a talented artist called Daniel Tammet, who suffers from synesthesia. This particular disease makes you sense things in a different way. For instance, Daniel experiences colors as sounds or shapes as tastes.  He relied on his courage to pull off great accomplishments. No tenet of Christianity would have allowed him to do it.

Lately, I`ve had horrible nightmares. I think I`m losing it. My social anxiety has gotten to the point of making me sick. Feelings of guilt for making the wrong decisions sear me. What I have is not a simple foible. So far, I`ve watched hundreds of motivational videos, gone to therapy once or twice. Moreover, I paraded myself as somebody who could sustain suffering and still carry on. To some extent, it was true. Though, I`ve gotten to the point in which I cannot take it anymore. While I was growing up, I always tried to fit in. It`s not I wasn`t ostracized either. Notwithstanding, I was switched from one school to another until I settled at one for three years.  I did not even played hooky once.  Besides, over the past few years I`ve been improving my English skills. Nonetheless, I barely worked on curing this mental state. After having fought down my tears for so long, I`ve broken down on a few occasions.  The lack of a parental image in my teenage years really affected me. Despite this, I have always been a squeamish fellow. Perhaps, there is incontrovertible proof to assume that I haven`t tried hard enough to overcome my situation. As well, something that is also true is the fact that I have been a shallow fellow my entire life. Always trying to look spiffy and neat. How can this be possible? An extremely shy person who is kind of arrogant?. Anyhow, also I realized that fighting out my past conflicts with my family now is pointless. What is done is done. Thus, no chiller would frighten me more than the fear of failure. No matter how many times I snuggle down my bedclothes, and dream stuff away. I have to face reality. Lastly, I`d say that raking over the past will only make me sicker. Ergo, not only will I need to live with it, but also I will try to accept it.

It is a beautiful sunny day in Lima. Ergo, I have the motivation I need to start doing something new. It is up to me to retrieve my life style. However, most of the situations I`ve been involved in, have been fraught with tension. Moreover, I get beside myself with rage when I think about my unpleasant past experiences. Being on the receiving end of a huge deal of unreasonable family orders ain`t funny. Besides, the fact that I`ve been unaccustomed to express my feelings has been my undoing so far. It is beside the point whether or not I`m exaggerating a little. The fact is that I`ve yielded to my Kin`s demands for so long. Furthermore, to circumscribe the freedom of a person is not acceptable. Anyhow, I may be  flouting the law by talking about this so often. Nonetheless, there is a bunch of wounds inside me that need to heal. Apart from that, severe psychological harm seems worse than a mild gash in your hand. Therefore, it is important to wipe the slate clean with the people around you. That way there won`t be anything negative in your mind. On the other hand, many times have I wearied of looking for opportunities. Notwithstanding, I never stopped doing what I love. Therein lies the key to success. You are going to deal with a lot of shit in your path to reaching a goal. Consequently, the need to be strong enough to bear with all of it. Lastly, I`d say that there is no reason to grow world-weary. As long as you are healthy, a wide range of objectives that can be achieved. So that bearing no resentment towards anyone is a good way to begin. I understand there may be some folks you want to accost for what they did you in the past. Though, remember this: ¨To err is human, to forgive divine¨

I`m not a sniveling kid anymore. Though, I wish I were. The older you are, the more responsibilities you have. Maybe if I had been a savant in the past (not that I`m one now), I would have stopped myself from resolving on bad choices. Nonetheless, being a genius doesn`t free you from social anxiety. Things started to go haywire since I left high school. Besides, the way in which I was raised wasn`t realistic. There is no right to take away the leeway a child deserves. Coming from an overprotective nuclear family, I know what I`m talking about. Unfortunately though, I submitted myself  to the decisions of my kin. Due to my insecurity that is. Even though I got to wallow in the excitement of some trips I made, the setbacks I ran into were more than pinpricks. Moreover, the amount of times I`ve been given the cold shoulder has been more than one is able to count on one hand. Then again my weak character had to do something with it. It`s hard for me to make out why some strangers seem to have a bad appreciation of me when we first encounter. This though has only happened to me with older folks. Perhaps, these bigoted individuals could sense my fear. At least, I know that a couple of times I`ve been nervy enough to stand up to a bunch of jerks. Anyhow, not from now, I hope to be able to disseminate my beliefs to my future students. Since I am to become an ESL teacher soon enough. Ergo, they won`t have to succumb to the terrors of society. Leaving minutiae apart, I`ll get to the main point. There are no limits for what we can imagine. For instance, the phantasmagoria we come across in dreams seems so real that it is hard to distinguish it from reality. That is because ¨the wish is father to the thought¨. Therefore, it is possible to accomplish your ultimate goal if you start now.

Being 21, I think it is time for me to move out of the family condo. Besides, I need something to content myself right away. A change in atmosphere would suit me right. Muting my negative thoughts and preventing them from taking over is a priority for me. Moreover, the place where I'm going is kind of a hot spot, which will keep me busy. On the other hand, this morning, I couldn't even wake up without that bitterness in my heart that doesn't allow me to have an internal peace. After hunting out some old photos I realized that at least my early years weren't as shitty as the recent ones. They say that the best way to learn something new is by osmosis. Though, I failed to do that. Most of my time spent in tasks to master English for example, has been on my own. That's why I believe my accomplishments are overdue. Some day, I'd like to stand in front of an audience and avow my position on  ESL teaching in Peru. I wouldn't backtrack on any of my opinions whatsoever. Of course by the time I give an speech, my work will be reckoned acceptable. Furthermore, I'll be fully apprised with the latest developments regarding that subject. Anyhow, as I was implying, there is no point in getting huffy over any mean remark brought up about your past. As ominous as your future may seem, you can still change it. For instance, I've been prodded to do many things a didn't want in the past. Nonetheless, I tried to overcome them. Unlike defunct machines, our body can work for as long as we need. Only if we remain as healthy as possible that is. Therefore, remember: Only if you disregard  foreboding predictions envious people make about you, will you feel spiritually fine with yourself. By the way, looking at the morning dew on your garden is a little relaxing. It may not be as enriching as viewing the sea on sunset. Notwithstanding, it still calms you down when you're jittery. Lastly, and hoping things to pick up, I'd like to finish with this old saying: "When there is a will, there is a way".

PS. I'll toddle off to the library. Ergo, I can find a topic not to bore you next time.

The billboard that produces potable water out of air

Many times have I been bewitched by beauty of some women, fascinating things I`ve learned, and what have you. Moreover, I`m not slouch on analyzing stuff. At times I wonder why some evil dudes get away with their evil deeds. It shakes the foundations of justice.  Throughout the way to make something out of yourself you hurdle many barriers. That`s why being mentally prepared is crucial. I`m always famished for knowledge.  Though, my confidence seems to falter all the time. The though of not having accomplished some previous goals still hurts me. Hence, cooling off from a state of worry ain`t easy for me. Besides, I use what I learned to have a ploy against my peers. That way of thinking isn`t slick. Due to the fact that I lost years of academic growth in the past. Nothing else can emasculate more the determination of a man that failure. Besides what I`ve gone through, I`m still a shy person. In a savage society like mine it doesn`t help at all. Responsibilities aren`t sloughed off easily. That`s why I can`t abandon what I`ve started. Nihilism prevents the chance of me doing something stupid against my health. Anyhow, I`ll keep sharpening up my skills no matter what. Even if I find myself in a slough of despond, I`ll stand up once more. No catastrophe is going to  prevent me from carrying on. Besides, little by little I begin to understand how precious life is. We are positive that we don`t stop being dejected by complaining. However, it sure relieves us. Whether or not I get to be sprightly again, just like I was as a kid ain`t matter. It seems to me that after all this time, I`ve become an inexpressive pal.  Just one new springboard to success would suffice. Having given up on my stupid fantasy that maybe some magical source was going to grant me what I deserve; I remain calm. The thought of one more considerable defeat makes me heave. In addition, if I were to have the opportunity to give any type of speech, I`m sure I`d be a heck of an orator. On the other hand, I know that the focus of any dispute can be sharpened. Thus, quashing future conflicts.  Sometimes, I think that every single thing I`ve learned has not been ahead of time. Nonetheless, they still help me. Even if I have to poach in somebody else`s territory to keep improving, I`m up for it. The permutation of stages one has to escalate to reach the top is not important. Moreover, giving a blow by blow account of my melodramas won`t spice things up. Thus, I`ve chosen a topic that can cool me out. Recently, I came across a documentary that took place in the arid parts of Peru. It was about how to use a special billboard to convert moisture into potable water. Not only did this particular experiment was licensed, but it also was a success. Furthermore, customers are usually softened up with free gifts before getting to sell them something. I hope that`s not the case here though. My people need free water at all times. Anyhow, many things can soften the blow after a defeat. Notwithstanding, the decision to get back into the game is only yours. Therefore, it may turn out that as soon as I come out of my shell, lo and behold, the world will be my oyster. Lastly, I`d like to end this with an analogy. Just like snakes slough their skin occasionally, people have to learn to get over their past issues. PS. I`ll get ready my best bib and tucker for my next date.

 













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Shabana Basij-Rasikh: Dare to educate Afghan girls

Going to school in Afghanistan equates to literal hell. Though, for women it is even worse. Since it ain`t allowed for them to attend. Once more, I had the chance to watch this Tedtalk about education in Kabul. This time, Shabana Basij-Rasikh, an aspiring and recently graduated teacher narrates her story. According to her, having a family who cherishes education is key for girls to progress in Kabul. Shabana`s parents always cared about her future. Thus, they risked their lives to send her to a hidden school. The Taliban took over long ago. Therefore, it is almost impossible for an Afghan citizen to be educated. Shabana`s father was the first in his family to attend an educational institution and ultimately finish high school. Her mother on the other hand, is an acquired teacher who helps out needy students. Besides, one can easily go through a crying jag due to being moved by this story. For instance, I complain about having been railroaded into getting into the wrong college years ago. Nonetheless, not being able to attend school at all is much worse.  It is like if the local the Afghan government conspired to bulldoze every young person`s dream of a bright future. In Kabul, you need a little guile to survive. For example Afghan girls have to disguise themselves as boys not to be recognized. In the western world some sneer at people who didn`t go to college. What if those criticized people couldn`t make it though?.  Nonetheless, the Afghan society has not regressed. Shabana demonstrated that anything is possible. Not only by getting a higher  education in the US, but also by teaching what she learned to others back in her country. Many parents there may beside themselves with rage cause they can`t send their kids to school. However, worldwide organizations are working to implement new schools in the middle east. Far from being a long-winded speech, Shabana`s one was motivating. It is as if your conscience smites you to do the right thing after you listen to her. People can`t be bulldozed into being ignorant.  Although, that`s what politicians want so that they can continue ruling. Not that you have to be smitten by acquiring knowledge. Notwithstanding, appreciating value of a civilized and entrepreneurial nation is essential. Having oversight of the education of a country is not a joke. Hence, having detrimental laws railroaded through the local congress seems wrong. Lastly, I`d say that I`ll be posting this talk`s video for you to watch. Anyhow, this husky blogger is gonna take a run. See ya!

Freedom University: Eduardo Samaniego at TEDxYouth@TheBeltline (+playlist)

It`s not easy task to come up with stuff to write every time. Recently, I watched a Tedtalk  about higher education.  This Mexican keynote speaker, Eduardo Samaniego talks about his life in The States. One of the things that I found interesting is that there is a university called ¨Freedom¨. This particular one allows undocumented students to attend. For anyone who wanna earn their spurs. This seems a great choice. Usually a difficult life spurs people on to succeed. I did not mention the Eduardo`s main points about his talk though. This former student and current advisor of Freedom University recounted the experiences of his life to inspire the audience. As a teen he was sent by his mom to the US. Therefore, he was able to graduate from high school there. Nonetheless, he run into many setbacks before he could get into college. It turns out that because of his residence status he could not get into any college for many years. However, he had been accepted due to his grades before he found out. Being beaten to the punch by your school pals in a competition over who gets into college first for normal reasons is OK. Though, this was an extreme case. Of course, this even caused mayhem in his life. Who wants to be spurned from schools you already had enter?. In my country for instance, some  people want to immigrate to the US so they can attend prestigious schools there. Most colleges here chisel students out of their money. What they learn is not so much. One not only attends a school because it is high brow, but for the fact that it allows you to experiment in the field.  To be honest, there is not mirth among most students here. Due to the fact that only a few get to have an exclusive education. Just to mention the best public college in Peru, ¨University of San Marcos¨. It may have very high standards, though it has outdated equipment. It`s difficult to uphold your negative opinions about your nation. Nonetheless, I know what it means to be citizen of an underdeveloped country. I can think of millions of putdowns for mine. However, it won`t change a thing. Besides, expecting problems to fizzle out is just as useless.  Thus, it is natural to feel muffed about the things you can`t change. For the ones you can though, it is impotent to uphold persistence. In a grody society like mine, you might wanna change everything. In the Peruvian highlands for instance, many lives seem aimless without help from the government. Anything that could herald a blueprint for a revolution in my nation`s education would be appreciated. So far, I hope the facts I`m telling contain felicity of style. Being on the rack for a better future is exciting. Though, it can be unhealthy if dealt badly. Due to the fact that stress causes psychosomatic problems. Wanting to get to the point in which you can live in a clover is acceptable. Not if you endanger your life though. Public opinion in how to solve issues may polarize. That`s why many ideas are nixed in the process of upgrading any system. Hence, before pitching nonsense is good to do a little research. Moreover you can´t make bricks without straw. That is something that should be taken into account if you want to progress. Many politicians transgress the bounds of democracy and even beat the rap. They mostly buddy up with the authorities by bribing them. Every honest person may wanna clobber them. Though, there`s not much that a bunch of underlings can do. If only there were someone who chewed out these evil doers that run developing countries. Not even guilt-edged securities would be necessary if there were honesty. Fibbing about something stupid doesn`t have any effect. Nonetheless, if the fate of a nation is at stake, you better start by telling the truth. Besides, each profession has its pros and cons. For instance, teachers have to deal with rambunctious kids on a daily basis. That doesn`t make them testy though. Furthermore,  people with outlandish ideas have been the ones who have been successful. Being eccentric doesn`t mean you live a life of debauchery. Even a burly/brawny logger would understand it. Sometimes I wish I lived in a backwater. Noisy cities throw my habits out of kilter. Anyhow, our goal as educators and parents is not to let our future generations get so snippy and irresponsible. Convoluted explanations try to explain the reason teenagers behavior. Our concepts on this are not fussy whatsoever though. Sometimes, our offspring thinks we`re scrooge when we stop them from purchasing bullshit. On the other hand, don`t  forget not to make do with quicker procedures in your academic path. Leapfrogging stages ain`t a good thing. Getting a degree may not be as easy as heralding a party. However, it has its rewards. You could even scrounge meals of friend to save for college. You may get whomped by a few of them for trying to do it. It was a joke. Of course, looking for a more profitable way of saving and netting cash seems better. To be at the helm of your plans should be what you strive. Sizzling adventures await you if you take some risks.  Step up to the plate if you don`t want you want to end up only being able to buy tacky staff. Finally, always think as if you were a merchant pitching their services at a resourceful business. You are like a product to be sold. I wanted to remind about the aforesaid piece of advice. Remember, spouting off about something is not the same as doing it. Besides, spy out ways to improve your career. Anyhow, I`ll scurry back to bed for a nap so I can enjoy my new quilt. Oh, by the way  splay out your legs once in a while. You don`t want to get butt cramps after lots of hours in front of your computer.

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I can`t stand the fact that I still can`t read something without skipping a part. Well maybe I`m exaggerating. I could go ad nauseam about what bothers me about this. Though, it`s not worth it. I just gotta work on my concentration. Going overboard on a new activity may help me forget my frustrations. Nonetheless, I don`t seem to forget anything bad no matter what. Anything new I learn means a lot to me. So that when it takes me longer to do it I get bugged. Not even spoiled munchkins get as annoyed as I am when I don`t get what I want. Setting up an schedule may help me out to overcome my problems. However, I`m a little lazy about that. If I wanna have more feathers in my cap though, I`ll have to do it. It seems funny cause I`ve been having giving advice about it, but I don`t do it myself. Moreover, to be assailed by regrets is only gonna kill me. My unconcealed curiosity should lead to keep my mind of my issues. Therefore, unless I don`t simmer down and think of a new way to organize my time, I won`t achieve anything. Going ballistic over spilled water doesn`t make sense. Everyone complains about things that trouble them. Notwithstanding, only some take action to solve them. For instance, if you don`t catch a whopper when fishing the first time, you understand why. Though, eventually you get it after many tries. It`s the same in everything we do. Besides, It ain`t wise to play catch up with anybody like if you were in a game. Each person goes at their own pace. Lions go through the underbrush to effectively catch their prey. In the same way we have to remain unnoticed at the beginning of our path. Until we feel confident enough to flaunt our skills that is. It`s crucial to brush aside your fears and go with the flow sometimes. There is a host of chances life give us to shine. Furthermore, time is something relative. I need to remind myself that. No clairvoyant is gonna tell you how your life will turn out. Only you can change it. Once I believed that bogarting knowledge gave me the upper hand over others. However, now I`m starting to realize I was wrong. Nothing is ours to keep besides our material possessions. Keeping yourself breezy is the best you can do during difficult times. Physical pain can lance through your body for a while. Though, emotional pain preys on your mind forever. That`s why you gotta remember you can`t breeze through everything in life. Many challenges will by as annoying as the typhoid. Nonetheless, overcoming them will be more fun after all. Not everyone is tarred with the same brush. Due to this, it`s important to remember the following. Each one of us has a different idea of what success and happiness really means. Thus, pushing them into doing something they don`t want is pointless. I would considered you dipshit if you were to lead me into oblivion. Though, some think they`re helping. I`d rather hear to a couple of ours of sleaze from the local politicians on TV than trusting someone dumb. Anyway, even if you don`t belong to the usual gaggle of people, you should feel OK. Personalities are unique to the individual. Being a deep thinker like me may help you give advice. Right, now I`m not exactly stoked over what is coming up in terms of challenges. Hence, I know my conflicting thoughts will be simmering for now. Lastly, I`d say that relaxing strolls can also help you get over problems. I`ll try having one along the beach pier before summer ends here. Don`t forget that you can skipper the boat of your life. No matter how old you are when you decide to do it. There`s concordance between organizing stuff and doing it. The better prepared you are, the better things turn out. Nothing should put you down. Even if you live in a shoe box, being thankful for what you have is important. Anyhow, I`ll start slurping my tea now that I`ve finished.

Everyone wants to sit on their tush and get rich overnight. Unfortunately for us success and popularity are not things that can be gotten that easily. Maybe it`s not always  true that you gotta work so hard as to look haggard for luck of sleep. Though, having an irrepressible confidence to be used when necessary is crucial. As well as knowing how to act in different occasions. I mean you`ll probably start out living in a boarding house after spreading your wings. Nonetheless, that`s the way everybody does. Besides, it`s not fun knowing you`re gonna end up being a yuppie from the beginning of your life. Due to the fact that you were lucky to be born rich. Not all hopes are forlorn. Therefore, it`s always good to look at the bright side of things. One good thing to do in your rookie days would be to mimic big companies. They downsize when they are almost at the end of the ropes. Moreover, we all know that doing something for a change is better than wailing all day long. Anyhow, what I really wanted to talk about is how cartoons in the 90s actually gave a message. Not only were they so much better than the ones we have now, but also kids got to learn something. Characters like ¨Arnold¨ were able to brush off almost any insult from others. Though there was this particular episode in which Bob (Jelga`s father) called him orphan in a parents competition. That completely crushed the boy. Despite this though, Arnold good to keep going in the contest. Even though he didn`t win, Phil (Arnold`s grandpa) got to beat mean Bob. Besides ¨Hey Arnold!¨, there were many other great cartoons which taught us things like not to get wilted by pressure. It`s also amusing how these characters could pull off snappy comments and handle complicated situations. Ninety`s shows may not have been available for everyone including downtrodden minorities. Nonetheless, most children managed to enjoy them.

I`m sure their creators were not snooty. Their cartoons just were meant for cable TV. Most of our problems don`t consign us to the scrapheap. So that we really shouldn`t get all queasy over petty things. Children were warned about underhanded people by watching these shows. Notwithstanding, they were mostly reminded that there`s still good in this world. Conversely, shows today are crummy.

Apart from HD quality animated series you don`t get to see much. One just wants to scram out of the room after getting a glimpse of these dumped down shows. I don`t know if their producers bungled them in purpose. Plots nowadays just seem to be jejune and meaningless. They don`t have to make their cartoons always bouncy. Nonetheless, fleshing out their characters wouldn`t hurt. Old series just had so much variety in the development of their stories. From bashful and benevolent characters to giddy and perky ones. For instance, ¨SpongeBob¨ was really funny without getting to be annoying. Although plankton was a less than slight villain, he was still very mean and creative. 21st century brats have no idea what they missed out. They grow up to be individuals that hide their worries behind an air of insouciance. I don`t exactly glower or scowl at these kids when I see them watching this bullcrap. Though,  I resent them having to waste their time with stuff like that. Opting out of doing it would be smarter. Superheroes hacking the heck out of each other ain`t exactly educational. Themes like violence and sex should be treated carefully when it comes to little scalawags. They don`t mostly have to look up to a personage. However, it is still important to guide them. If you are gonna have your children gawking in front of the TV. At least put on a good show. Parents think that fussing over their offspring means educating them. This couldn`t be further from the truth. Quality over quantity. Have them prune back the number of hours they spent playing video games or watching TV. By doing it you`ll get to enjoy more family moments with them. You won`t even have to be in a tug of war over their attention. Anyway, I`ve gone from talking about success to describing old cartoons. Remember the following: The rousing ovation some get for what they do is not as important as the appreciation of your own capabilities.  Current and forthcoming generations need to know that they still can watch  their heroes beaning the bad guys. Though, it should be without them having too much of a dose of violence. You don`t get pumped up over what you see in the big screen. However the way it is portrayed in the storyboard can excite you. The whole concept of having the villain reaching their nemesis at the end of the film gets boring sometimes. Lastly, I`d say that whether or not you agree with me; I`m ok with it. I don`t wanna get all wizened at an old age or have my features bloated. Due  to being cranky of course. Well, I`ve said enough. Now if you`ll excuse me, I`ll go scamper down the kitchen to get an snack.

Sometimes, it`s difficult to fight back bullies of society. The vexatious attitude some turds have towards others. In fact, dissing these jerks doesn`t escape my mind as a possibility. Though, being assertive does not mean being rude. Well maybe a little. Putting up a vacuous expression and answering back might do the trick. I mean it seems right on occasion. To mouth off at people sure takes a load off your mind. Nonetheless, you can find other ways to channel your aggression into something else. Such as sports and other leisure pastimes. A blitz of activity may be able to get rid of any sort of anger. Life could get as hard as being jilted by your fiancé the day before getting married. Notwithstanding, one can get over almost everything. Feeling a woozy after thinking about complicated stuff is possible. Deconstructing every bad thing that happens to is not always good though. Nothing, in excess is positive. Learning to curb your temper sure is good. Although, loitering around wouldn`t help at all. Standing up to an injustice should be done always. Being a bystander to a crime means conniving in an unfair act. Disappointment is right around the corner. You can go gaga over your first crush at school and find of your love is unrequited the same day. Besides, not everyone has a sturdy manner. Some may even take time to recover from those wounds caused by fate. Of course finding your soul mate seems as hard as becoming the kingpin of a big company.  Getting stuff overnight ain`t possible. Moreover, masquerading yourself as somebody else to achieve anything isn`t wise either. Instead of being insecure, try boosting your own skills. To mack up a bimbo and go further with them is a clear example of what judging by looks means. Even if it does not seem you`re gonna get something, things could go your way. Therefore, all the experience you get throughout life should be your making. In order for your work to have the making of a master piece, you gotta strive for the best. You might as well get under way on your preparations to reach the top. The first thing you have to do to escalate that first step is ridding that funk that bothers you. As I explained earlier, through catharsis, one can expel negative emotions. Moreover, manifesting your feelings doesn`t have to be easy all the time. However, you must do it anyway. Paint out those old scars with a layer of hope and start over. Kill off feelings of revenge. Unless of course it`s an extreme case. Remember that answers to problems are not gotten by scrabbling in your bag. Mind work should be put into good use to solve any conundrum. Things must be done with care if you want results. I bet you don`t want your coffee to be sloshed into your mug every morning. In the same way you should mind about your work. Avoid things like painting your skills in a job interview with a broad brush. If you love what you do, then show your future employer how much you do. Retest your tactics to have better outcomes in the future. You lips will twitch with amusement when you discover what you`re capable of.

Letting your imagination run riot once in a while is important to unleash your true talent. You must at times delve into the depths of history to find inspiration. My mantra ain`t exactly ¨never forget the purpose of your pursue to success¨. That`s why I too have to reinforce my beliefs. Some goals may be a figment of  your imagination. Though, most of them can be achieved.  Being curious also helps. Therefore it`d be smart to scout an area for activities that can help you learn new stuff every time you visit a place. Nothing can cinch a good stay. Nonetheless, if you make an effort you can overcome that.  Besides, dawdling to take an unexpected chance caused by serendipity is foolish. Sometimes the fact of going into the whys and wherefores of a situation can get you lucky strike. Apart from that, things like patching up your differences with old foes can get you less enemies.

Instead of letting negative emotions flicker inside you, it`s better to cool yourself down. Thinking of the consequences of your actions, or better yet, to avoid doing things you`re gonna regret is wiser. Anything can be achieved with a little motivation. For instance, if you find yourself a little pudgy, there`s no better excuse to start an organized exercising routine. Tension may bubble up inside you at first, though you`ll get used to it eventually. To get the outcome we want to gotta stick out things we don`t like at times. Being friendly does the trick too. Even though it`s illegal, some businesses soak clients they find annoying. Flash points that have caused wars could have been stopped. If one of the sides had back down of course. Deadlocks are a bad thing. Squelching rumors and misunderstandings is a good way to start stopping stalemates. Though raving at others doesn`t solve anything, some can`t help it. By tightening up laws against violence, government can make sure no unnecessary risks are taken. Stick by your principles and don`t let other convince you otherwise. It may be normal to be in a daze after ending an impasse. Nonetheless, not even that should make you forget your sense of what is right. Doubt could ripple through righteous people, but never wickedness. I`ll stick my neck out and say that being mischievous on occasion doesn`t harm anybody. Notwithstanding, it`s crucial not to cross the line by letting bad actions such as heist temp you. Rays of light pierce through mists. In the same way good should conquer evil. Remember not to let any abusive idiot give you the shaft. If possible retaliate with shafts of wit. Also don`t use flabby excuses for not doing something you must. Youth is an advantage that should be considered. Feeling limp at a young age for no reason seems more of a lazy attitude to me.

One more month and my school duties resume. Time goes by so quick sometimes it`s spooky. That`s why it`s important to educate yourself as much as you can and take advantage of each chance. Though, I still think being shortchanged for not having gone to college is silly. Some just couldn`t do it. Besides, nowadays the number of uneducated people has dwindled cause they`re less concerned at having children too soon. Being the anchor of a family takes up most of your time. Nonetheless, many-sided individuals kind of have an advantage. Of course it`s always better to be dubious about making the wrong choice. Multifaceted aspects should be considered before doing something regrettable. Only when there`s no other option can one settle to resort to hard solution. Instead of having only one recourse cause of a previous mistake is better to omit making rookie mistakes. Moreover, implanting a cautious manner to yourself will prove handy. Nothing is certain, you can`t know for sure if your future will be rosy. The status quo can always change. Avoid gaffs and incendiary remarks as well as two-edged comments if you wanna limit the number of folks that are gonna hate you. Apart from that, tit for tat cases of violence are more common this days. Most advice columns and documentaries are anchored on real life experiences. Therefore you must keep an eye open for any possible setback.

Furthermore, stuff like knowing a second language don`t seem to give you the cutting edge they did before. So that it`s up to you whether or not you wanna be part of the sideshow.  It is crucial to prepare yourself physically and mentally for the future. Stay out of boisterous places that most of the time lead to trouble too. Beware of people whose comments reek of hypocrisy. Do things that exhilarate you. That`s the best way to keep a young spirit. Besides, don`t forget to spruce up more than usual in special occasions. Most cities are swarming with familiar faces to locals. As bonus I`d say not to forget making a wish every time you see a shooting star. Hope for the best and unhand yourself from insecurities that hold you back.

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Just one day off did not seem enough. As yet my mind is still not made up about some plans. Carrying out full-fledged projects ain`t easy. Though, I`m not even there yet. Still gotta develop my ideas. On the other hand, I think that one of the best things that can happen to a writer is to be eulogized as a genius. For that to be true most of the books one publishes should be slam-dunks. Besides that I`d be exciting to appear on the front page rather than on the sidebar of papers. "The Valkyries" by Paulo Coelho is quintessence of that kind of success. Along with Paulo, many other famous writers had to brave numerous hardships to reach the top.  I could even reconstruct one of the unpleasant experiences these artists had to go through. Notwithstanding, I think I`ve made myself clear. As hard  as it may be for artists to reprise a great performance, it is still possible. Time for an analogy, failures can ricochet of the wall just like a stray bullet. Though, it`s up to you whether you let them affect you or not. Sometimes, it`s better to make headway instead to rushing into making the wrong decision. Not only by talking can you make a statement. That`s what I'm trying to say. The way one behaves, dresses, etc. is also crucial in the mindset of an artist. Projecting confidence is a good start. No matter how severe obstacle instigated by different circumstances appear to be.
You can dart towards the bus stop earlier than usual. Therefore, you get to have more time to review for a make-up. As lame as that example is, there is a bunch of others that express the same meaning. Besides, everyone begins in an empirical manner. Theories are based on experiments. So that, you shouldn't care about others deprecating your work. As long as you're OK with it. Even the crooks who make bootleg CDs have some credit for trying. Not that I agree with that way to make a living. Anyhow, remember not to be ashamed next time you wanna go around town with a scraggly beard. 

Some girls might just dig it!