Life ins`t exactly as easy as  going down a slide. Not that I like to use tautology with words. Anyhow, letting  things slide wouldn`t help me. Thus, the need for me to chin up. By the way, I`m just gonna mention a few topics in passing. Since it`s my first school day. I hope I don`t fall in the habit of grazing on junk food. My body ain`t flecked with bruises anymore. Besides, I gotta get rid of this flea-bitten attitude. Rethinking my plans is the smartest thing I can do now. My mind was feeding on dingy thoughts. There is no time for more  dreary days though. Luck only smiles on the ones who try their best. To think that I was considering giving up the ghost. I accept my state of affairs with equanimity now. Besides, why should I let a bunch of losers keep living while I give up. I still gotta serve up lots of fantastic posts to my audience. To me, I`m a ghost of my former self. Back as a kid, I was more assertive. I gotta get back my mojo. Still I`m in a quandary right now. As I said before, I wanna become big wig. Moreover, going to Canada seems reasonable to achieve it. Many have frozen me out of doing what I love. Thus, some of those situations may have halted me in my tracks. Even though I know some folks  have had it harder than me, I haven`t created a tempest in a teapot.  I`ve got though rough times too. If I keep this attitude, I may become a reigning writer. I`m at my wits` end right now. Nonetheless, I never lose hope. Anyhow, I`m kind of slumping down in my chair back and forth. Furthermore, I`m putting my back into this. I might stop trying chasing shadows. Who knows? I can`t live under the shadows of fear all my life. I don`t want anybody else`s job to put mine in the shade. My shades of opinion vary often. I know first hand what it means to suffer cause your kin controls your every move. Besides, my mind is swathed in confusion. At times, I`d even want to send my folks with a flea in their ear. However I cannot afford to move out. I never was flippant about my goals. It just that my life got fucked up by my family from the start. If don`t solve my problems soon, I may end up being hoisted by my own petard. I wish I were making a drama out of a small issue I could have. Though, that`s not the case, I`m experiencing more a crisis  than a dramedy. No more changes could unsettle me now. Since most of those have left me kissing goodbye my chances of success.