I`ve been run roughshod over many times ever since I was a kid in elementary school. Hence, I tried to retaliate when I was in high school. Besides, I was conditioned to believe I was less than others. Thus, I grew up with an inferiority complex that was never treated. Having to withstand constant arguments. To take the plunge for me and change my life is hard at this point. I didn`t take the step to treat myself early enough. I was duped by my brother years ago into believing I was gonna have a better life in Canada. When in fact all he cared about was my mom`s money. Apart from this when the time came for me to confront such a situation I was not even ready. I had been forced into doing whatever my brother wanted. Due to this I couldn`t prepared myself. At times I felt as if I had been labeled a pawn by him. By analogy, I did not feel like the fisherman who spears the fish, but like the fish being speared. Moreover, my mom did everything he requested to he letter. Which ultimately fucked me up. Not  only was I prevailed on to enter a crappy college, but I also was constantly nagged by my brother`s visits to Lima. Without even consulting my mother, her was fresh enough to show up in our tiny condo. Even with company one time. Besides, I had to heave some of their damn suitcases up the stairs.  Cause of all of this, I`ve never had a place which I considered my turf. Enough crap already. I did not even mention my irresponsible father. Anyhow, bitching about my kin may work as catharsis. Nonetheless, doing it ain`t going to solve my problems. Lastly, I`d say that it is pathetic from me not having tackled my issues by now. After all, I`m an adult now. I should behave like one. Notwithstanding, I keep procrastinating. The way in which a person deals with life`s hardships is not exactly conditioned by their family`s wealth back in the past.





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