A new day has come. Ergo, I have to focus on the future from now on. Besides, my actions amount to a load of craziness. Thus, the reasons for my problems. I`ve to stop playing the victim. Even though I have felt that I`ve had no say in my family; I have to avoid raking it over. By analogy, I  feel like a recidivist who cannot stop doing bullshit. However, I need to leave all that behind. As well,
the process of me getting over my depression has to be commensurate with my willingness to achieving it. Moreover, burying the hatchet with my brother hasn`t help me that much. Anyhow, before I even consider launching out on my own I have to get a new chance. Apart from conquering my insecurity that is. I know  I`ve been out to lunch at times. That is because I did not want to move on.  I`ve even got hatchet job on my work many times. Moreover, I´ll put up a ballpark figure on how much time it will take me to recover. I estimate it a few months for my own sake. I don`t want to end up in a loony bin. On the other hand, I`ve buried myself in my work. Social activities are required for anybody who wants to keep alive. How am I going to barter ideas with others if I seat on my ass all day long? Whether or not I`ve been in a cleft stick is part of the past. Do I have to cleave to the hope that I will succeed no matter how much I have suffered. It is up to me to change. Taking all of what I`m going through as a wake-up call is the wisest thing I can do. Furthermore, nobody should be able to disrespect my volition. Lastly, I`d say that life puts you to trouble as a way to test you. It seems like if it were a hatchet man who is hired to bother other employees.