I`ve decided not to give up. Despite all the shit I`ve gone through. Besides, it`s always been hard for me to express my opinions with aplomb. Being drawn and quartered for not asserting yourself is bad. I should have asserted my independence a long time ago. In fact, I`d given anything to be a voluble guy. Always have I had to be drawn out. It may seem that I was about to kill myself, when common sense reasserted itself. I`ll have to reassert my position with my folks. I`ve drawn out my decision to be mature. Moreover, I actually never drew emotional support from my kin. Though, it`s true that my situation has gone out of the frying pan into the fire partly casue of me. I`ll take all my personal effects and go somewhere where I finally can find peace. If there is a way to effect a cure for me, I wanna know it. The after effects we experience after bad things that happen to us can really affect us. I may have affected calmness. They say that to recover from depression, you gotta throw yourself into a whirlwind of activities. However cause of lack of cash, I couldn`t do it.  Furthermore, I`ve always felt treading a tightrope cause of the control of my family. Thus, I want to stop being trampled on. In addition, making a mistakes can cause a ripple effect. I should reassert that I may not recover from all this. Regret ripples through me for not having done what I had to in time.